New Start Each Day

Today at church was fruitful...

2011-11-07T22:39:00.004+08:00

Sleep IS NOT what I need.

Worth Waiting...

2011-10-03T00:50:00.003+08:00

Don't rush.

Don't get impatient.

Lives, need time to progress.

Let's give time...

Little things in life~

2011-09-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

There are so much small things in life that worth much.

The weight of a small act can lead to very fruitful results.

The small steps taken daily can actually lead to high goals.

The affirming words, smile, $2, can go the extra extra mile for another person.

Perhaps your absence gave me some room to reflect.

And it reminds me to cherish and treasure, not taking things for granted.

Lastly, it builds up to who we will be, in future.

Appreciate your effort to keep yourself "present".

My Lord is always with me.

He is always with you.

In Him, always together :)

Sit on fence...

2011-09-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

"Don't have to always make a stand before we do something."

Perry

How true.

Let's step back and OBSERVE.

Parenthood, Wow...

2011-09-08T00:45:00.003+08:00

Saw this father bringing 3 toddlers for swim today.

I'm sure all who sees him would either pity him or if not very impressed by him.

When one child is choking, another will bravely walk down the stairs unsteadily.

Before you catch hold of them 2, the third one is crying.

He stays composed, giving much room for each child to be exposed to risks and danger.

And I wonder, where to draw lines in life, really depends on what you experienced...

I do not hope any of my children will meet with fatal accidents, of course.

But I try my best not to limit exposures.

They are important, aren't they?

God is amazing to give us free-will.

To walk out on Him.

To betray Him.

To turn against Him.

He displays the best parenthood, always loving and guiding but never forcing.

So glad God gave me wise parents...

I want to be one next time as well~

DUH zzz~

2011-09-03T23:34:00.001+08:00

No swimming.
No jogging.
No dinner.

Where's healthy lifestyle? -.-

Thank you for your LOVE

2011-09-01T01:08:00.002+08:00

It's really nice to know I need not learn how to cook!
Woohoo~~~
What a big relieve in life...

And when the time is right, TING!
BOM! BOM!! BOM!!!
Fireworks :)

I'm really blessed to have known you.
So fortunate to have met you all.
So thankful to accept You.
My life will be complete, when I complete my work.

Sustain!!

2011-08-30T22:58:00.004+08:00

I know myself a bit better today.

More motivated by the extra mile than my responsibility.

Since a candle will surely finish burning one day...

Let's burn the candle at both ends.

Let's simplify complications in life.

And take one step at a time, being sincere and truthful daily.

Mind guessing game is not my take, I surrender even before the game starts.

Please don't do this to me.

No, I mean, I won't play along.

Today is fruitful, thank You Lord for keeping me!

Learning to Love

2011-08-27T01:06:00.002+08:00

被爱是幸福，也是痛苦的。

Because love expects.

And very often expects wrongly of others we love.

Want to stop weighing people down.

Hope you can stop weighing me down too.

广度不如深度

2011-08-25T12:13:00.002+08:00

Just like how a Profit and Loss A/C tallies to Balance Sheet A/C tallies to Bank Reconciliation A/C.

Fruitful meant the Conscious Truth, Inner Desires and Outer Actions all tally.

Many things are not what it is on the surface.

Use the physical eyes and miss the point.

Use the heart and discover the love and joy from within.

Thank you for being understanding.

Thank you for caring.

Thank You for loving.

Thousand miles begins with a single step...

2011-08-23T00:33:00.003+08:00

So much to reserve for next time.

Savings don't start only when there's a need to save up.

It starts when you have a dream or a vision.

I should be sad now, but I'm very encouraged.

I should not be seeing light of hope, but I'm so hopeful and have never been that hopeful.

I so blessed to be so taken care of.

Their understanding, wisdom and forgiveness.

Their acceptance, grace and protection.

Thank you for all the love, it not only warms but also coloured my life.

I'm not just waiting.

I will build on.

Clearing the Clouds...

2011-07-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

For all that I can, I want to share.

For all that I will be, I want to share.

For all that I want, I want to rely on Him to provide.

Not to fight for myself.

Nothing beats having Him inside my heart.

Thank you for always sheltering me, people I love...

Although a lot of them never will get to read this, but they my heart to read.

:) Love speaks louder than WORDS.

No reserve for self.

2011-04-27T18:45:00.004+08:00

Loving is to be vulnerable.
Open to hurts, disappointments and bruises.
Because love chooses to be sincere, honest and taken off feet.
Love fearlessly and start expecting.
And of course, agape love has been demostrated throughout 33yrs, ending on the Cross.

Don't say you love or has once loved when you are building on yourself all the while.
Don't deflate the value of how you could have loved.

Should I?

2011-04-20T16:20:00.002+08:00

I feel like changing my hero from Jacob to Joshua.

You know it's ok to step forward when you've already stepped forward.
We don't make right choices, we make our choice right...
God's grace!

My aging life...

2011-03-10T17:54:00.003+08:00

Give me a heart that beats for the right things.

So I can live for the right purpose.

For all that I do, let the wastage be minimum.

Right choice.

All the best...

2011-02-28T18:03:00.003+08:00

Since soooooooooooooooooooo many years back, receiving your emails has been tedious for me.
Even more so later part of the years.
Yesterday was the first time I read it a light heart at such sincere peace.

Congrats!

But still, I decline the last offer.
And to show you my determination and sincerity, I shall not even leave the invite.

Love

2011-02-17T12:23:00.004+08:00

I started learning WHAT the moment I was conceived.
Then slowly learning WHERE as I analyse and identify real and unreal.
Eventually to move on to consider WHO before deciding on anything.
And now, WHEN seems to slowly fit into one of my concern.

But throughout the 23yrs was HOW.
To love and be loved...

And my next 50yrs to build up on the Ws and H.

Before I move on to Love @ Full Level in Heaven with God :)

Lunar New Year Greetings to ALL!

2011-02-01T16:08:00.003+08:00

It's not easy to use more of brain and faith than to use feelings to make decisions.

I've more or less come to a conclusion.

But has yet to realise the full payment of it.

Anyway, I'm excited to watch movie with all my old loves!

HAHAHA, it will be so cute to see them all in theatre :D

Hmm, must remember to bring "spare" jackets for them.

The joy of festive seasons: To be present.

Wish I could do more this Lunar New Year...

I've come so far because of You.

2011-01-26T00:24:00.004+08:00

There are so many things I want to say.
But from the first to the last person, are all "thank you".

For the kind gestures, my friends.
For the gentle encouragements, my buddies.
For the care and concerns, my loves.
For the money and patience, my family.
For the honesty and warm, my secret angel.
For the Love and Forgiveness, my Lord.

In times when I say I'm most blessed...

I really feel so.

Crossroads

2011-01-20T21:46:00.003+08:00

God has blessed me so much.
Provided way beyond imagined and asked.
But in return, He asks for courage.
Asks for faith.

Why am I still unable to give in return?
Is that why He always provide me with such options?

But still, I'm thankful...

Next project: CNY -.-

2011-01-18T15:32:00.003+08:00

There are areas in life which may be totally unrelated but makes a good match when put together... Just like carrot and orange. Like hosting and playing.

So you may say it's all serve.
But it's all fun-serving :)
I know it'll just be different tomorrow.
For todays never repeat themselves.

Maybe I'll learn to enjoy fishing in the near future?
I want to be like water...

It's all chance.

2011-01-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

When you just want to make all the decisions.
When you are sick of making all the decisions.

When you hope time flies without looking back.
When you wonder you ever can catch up with time.

When the only wish is to go out with friends for a movie.
When the only hope is the family stays together, close.

When everything everyone seems not understanding towards you.
When understand everything in everyone you hope you don't.

I call this --- cl-life.blogspot.com
Many call this --- Growing Up
When we all can exchange everything for it and dreads every other side of the good returns.
Once again reminded of what the World means for me.

... And the things of the world shall grow strangely dim.
In the Light of Your glory and grace.

In the other shoes...

2011-01-05T00:22:00.003+08:00

Single life is good life until you met someone who knows a better life for two.
~YQ~

If change is the only constant, I'll learn to embrace anything I have to meet.
Someday.
That day, I will be stronger than today.
We never stop growing, do we?

I can kind of relate the sadness, the lost, the ??? floating around the head.
Whatever God takes away, He Himself replaces the gap.
Deepest sympathy...

New Year; New Start...

2010-12-30T18:14:00.003+08:00

You know right, blog, I have no time to blog...
So forgive me for putting you in coldroom for so long.

Anyway, to cut the long story short.
Everything is fine, at least I'm not drowning.
Everything can be better, if I have more quiet time to myself.
Everything be best, as I adjust and re-tune my lenses to focus right.

So life's pretty exciting still!
At least I have so many loves-loves around... :)
Grandparents coming again tomorrow.
Why can't everyone co-exist for a long period?
At least at festive seasons.

Walking Side by Side

2010-11-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

Crazy mind can't stop rolling.

And each time I look into an area of preparation, I see much much much more needs into that area of concern.

So my to-do-list adds up every single day -.-"

Maybe I should hire a PA?

As I grow in life, a team will be stronger to see into all needs.

And perhaps at least feeling a little more satisfaction in fulfilling life?

Learning how to hold you the way you are but yet discover how we can find synergy together.

That's times tougher than aiming to cover it alone.

Not to mention the option of ignoring all needs, that's not an option anyway...

But because the value of US is greater than the value of me.

So I'll try, all the way in my whole life.

To walk together, as a team, together.

*Team Rocket blasts things off again!*

Nothing but the Blood of Jesus

2010-11-06T23:00:00.002+08:00

How overwhelming can it be, that I am loved this way?

How undeserved can it be, that I am forgiven this way?

What a fantasy, a dream come true, a fairy ending...

Sometimes, we just have to look beyond ourselves, to feel the joy.

To care for others, to resolve our problems.

To help the weak, to be thankful in life.

Perhaps waiting for people in rush is the hardest thing in life.

Perhaps smiling for people in tragedy seems insane in life.

I would like to see it that everything God allows in our lives, the good and bad, up and down:

We can expect it more than it seems, building a value behind every endurance.

Hard day? Prayer softens it.

Tired day? Rest in peaceful hymns.

Lousy day? Ask your best friend to smile at you.

Depressed day? The Bible solves it all.

But to prevent the above days, do the latter...

2010-11-03T18:53:00.002+08:00

The reason we experience breakdown is because we are creating a new possibility.

Simply saying, we get disappointed because we have expectations.

I don't want to do things in concept.

I want to be present for the things I say.

When I say I love You, I want to love You not in a concept.

I want to be present in the loving You process.

When I say I forgive you, I do not want to forgive in concept.

I want to be present in the forgiving process...

Commit to the right One.

2010-11-01T13:52:00.002+08:00

"Those who sows in tears will harvest in joy."
If it's of value, it will be worthy of the wait, the pain and the sacrifice...
And not the perceived-value but rather it's concrete value determined beyond worldy eyes.

Woke up at 3am to think it's already 7am.
And woke up at 8am to think it's just 5am.
What's wrong? -.-"

Not just doing, but being...

2010-10-26T15:34:00.003+08:00

I self-checked if I was biased, for all that I know, I don't know and gave up knowing.
I'll just enjoy the Spiritual Lift, the Retunned Route experience~
But it's really amazing how encouragement has no boundaries.

I don't want to over-rate nor to under-estimate, Lord's wisdom balance all.
I don't want to stinge in my prayers of hope, cause I have a listening Father.
I didn't know I can be so demanding in faith, as He has no poverty.
I didn't know it is so easy and light bearing another yolk, my God provides.
Keep me fit physically, secure emotionally, and alert spiritually.

Being inspired by Zhiying's art pieces lately, I will do some art today...
I'm going to try: Watercolour! Using that of course for more than leisure!
Because watercolour, unlike oils and acrylics-doesn’t stick; instead it actually warps the canvas as it wets it.

Brain Freeze; Heart Burnt.

2010-10-26T00:58:00.002+08:00

I do not know why, but I seriously have SMS...

Is this a sign of aging?

Or is it the growing of immaturity?

Sometimes the exact opposite is just a step away.

Isn't it why knowledge isn't sufficient?

And that love and forgiveness surpass all insufficiency?

The bus-stop in the forest, haha..

Refreshing to my soul...

2010-10-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

There are so many times you agree to a Law.
And very much that the logic, understanding and science all support in unity.
But from the Law, we are condemned.

Until we find unity of Faith with the Law can we rediscover the fulfillment of life.
I've been awaken, I want to stay focused.
My existence is fully for and by my Creator, nothing measures close to Him.

I want to learn to love You, Lord...

Made for Another

2010-10-13T10:37:00.004+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorr...y cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

Richness is the value of what the heart contain;
Not the value of what the hands can hold unto.

I pray for richness in you :)

Life of a PA

2010-10-12T14:49:00.003+08:00

Most of the times we are a clerk, clearing paper work, firming appointments.
Other times we go in and out of meeting rooms like zombies.
Ocassionally, we get chances to have access to confidential information.
If company lunch-out, we lunch-in; if company lunch-in, we lunch-in-meetings.
When their children call, we become parents.
When their maids call, we become Mdm.
When their friends' call, we become friends' friend.
Bad days without sufficient staff, we can be pantry aunties.
Fortunate days with boss out of town, we sleep and drool also no one knows.

Nevertheless, I enjoy the learning the experience...
Just not the aftermath of learning when you have to look into everything -.-"

But I like my boss la... <3

Fear eats up love.

2010-10-07T21:03:00.004+08:00

"Why am I always tempted to do wrong thing?"

Dad: "Because you're a living being."

You know how important memories are to people who cannot create memories?

Million times more important.

God knows I cannot cope with too much memories, so He let the records pause.

And to recreate after I fully digest and not take any for granted.

That's if you were me.

You'll be thankful still, for whatever missing puzzle, you see a meaning worth the wait.

Peeps, please do your homework!

To be happy, be thankful...

2010-10-03T00:51:00.001+08:00

There are alot of things I have to remind myself to remember.

Cause I do not want to forget...

Neither to take it for granted.

Who I love, I treasure, I protect.

2010-09-30T23:15:00.003+08:00

I have my 2 loves in the house!

Made fruit salad for them.

Adjust the temperature of the room every 2 hours for them.

Dig out all "good-stuffs" for them.

Bought so much food that they keep telling me they are full.

I hope I'll accomplish the wish...

Of having 4 in 1~

Building on Affirmation

2010-09-23T18:38:00.005+08:00

Some people feel it so many times in life that they lost count.

Many a times, they don't cherish enough.

A handful feel it few times in life and each has a story of the ending.

Perhaps too much distractions?

The fortunate few need not waste any feelings to round trips.

They felt it once and hold on to it forever more.

There are selected group who opt out in search of such feelings.

They surrendered to fear and rejections.

Twice for me.

And they are so differently similar.

And so similarly different.

Sometimes I wonder if there is any logic behind selections...

There should be, I think.

Who says love isn't about feeling?

Just that they do not equate.

Whoever makes sense

2010-09-23T18:33:00.003+08:00

明明就是threaten我, 还不让我讲你threaten我...
Within itself it's another threat!!!

Call police uh~

Let me be there - Olivia Newton

2010-09-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

Wherever you go
Wherever you may wander in your life
Surely you know
I always wanna be there
Holding you hand
And standing by to catch you when you fall
Seeing you through
In everything you do

Let me be there in your morning
Let me be there in you night
Let me change whatever's wrong and make it right
Let me take you through that wonderland
That only two can share
All I ask you is let me be there

Watching you grow
And going through the changes in your life
That's how I know
I always wanna be there
Whenever you feel you need a friend to lean on, here I am
Whenever you call, you know I'll be there

Let me be there in your morning
Let me be there in you night
Let me change whatever's wrong and make it right
Let me take you through that wonderland
That only two can share
All I ask you is let me be there

Seasons in the Sun

2010-09-16T16:29:00.003+08:00

I feel so proud being part of the family.
Part of the church.

Part of the company.

Part of the friendship.
Part of the complications.

I am thankful for all opportunities life has provided me with.
Thankful for the decisions made thus far, from the bad I learnt the good I benefitted.
Thankful for simplicities of Truth and the complications of the principles.
Thankful for the joy and sorrow, the arrivals and departures, the ups and downs.
Thankful for all love shown, patience generously given, care provided...
Thankful for the hurt experienced, memories of silliness and wrong turns made.

All these made up to who I am today.
And will all I am, I decide from here.
Do not want to imagine "perhaps"...
Do not want to regret on "what if"s...
Rejecting the short-term feeling of "floating in the air", which madethe fall unto reality grounds so hard.
Rejecting the short-lived "fantasy and dreams", which often pulled me further from where I should be.
Rejecting the "negativeness, worries, fear and skeptism", basically all the side-effects growing up brought me.

It will be if it is meant to be.
It will not no matter how hard I try.
For all that will and will not, I want to be thankful.
And make all the good out of it.

Being logically intact and staying positive are not mutually exclusive.
Because...

With Christ all things are possible!
(Not talking about what our human nature wants, but rather the unlimited plans of God!)
Learning to discover the undisturbed peace and unconditonal joy within me.

Yes, already within me.

Memories since childhood

2010-09-13T16:27:00.002+08:00

Psalm 23
(A psalm of David. )
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Why didn't you wait for me?
But everytime I remember you, I thank God for you...
Rest well after 93yrs of hard-heart work.
We are proud of you!

Officially Missing You

2010-09-06T02:18:00.001+08:00

I'll be back.

Be good.

Stay out of trouble.

Enjoy my absence.

Don't forget...

I love you!

Top of the World

2010-09-01T12:12:00.007+08:00

This is for you... If only you think so :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=grnkCPxdTdU&feature=popular

I love them:

Even though there is a chance that I will fall in love, lose all my to my future family, sacrifice whatever I have for them, but...

They will never surpass the importance of my current family to me.

I'll just add on the "memory-space".

And as I browse through my loves' photos, I realised I miss my "don't need to wait for hair to dry" hairstyle! Just too bad this hairstyle upsets my grandma -.-"

You know, I've been praying so hard these days.

For God to interfere.

Don't watch us fail, help us succeed.

Watch Over

2010-08-29T00:11:00.001+08:00

Watching...

... over.

Array.

2010-08-26T23:33:00.023+08:00

I used to say I don't see the value in spending hundreds on fresh flowers on wedding day, only to see them wither the next few days, not even lasting a week.

So I'd prefer:

If we used to think like me, see if they'll change your views...

Enjoy! :D

1. Tender Thoughts

Like the nice blend of colours in the same shade.

2. Sweetest Belle

Hmm... Not my kind but really sweet :) Feel glad for whoever receives this!

3. Summer Rennaisance

I'd rather name it Lemon tree! Hohoho~ Creative! Like!

4. Spring Sweetest Pleasure

Whao~ Hot pink... Nice colour and flowers contrast ya?

5. Rosy Fanfare

Red Ridding Hood's basket of flowers~

6. Posh

Obviously not the kind I'll like. Too elegant and classy...

7. Pink Princess

So rarely pink comes in comfortable to me >.<

8. Lavish Floral Hat

Of course don't mind wearing one! Hee~ Like the tone.

9. Home Sweet Home

Something I will imitate / spend $ to create / steal one for my home...

(No matter if my husband finds it too girly or what. Lalalala~)

10. Glorious Shine

Something so traditionally modern...

11. Free Spirit

Matching name! Perhaps to get this one now? Hmm~

12. Fit for Princess

Ash, this is for you :) From Miah... :x

13. Fair Blush

My 2nd Option after #9. Something cosy, sweet and warm. Purple-pink did the work!

14. Colour Attraction

Hmmm... Ok lor... -.-

15. Centre of Universe

Special and unique design ya? I like x10!

16. Blossoming Beauty

Something I'll get for my elders... Reminds me of Grandma and Mummy's love. :)

17. A Sight for Keeps

Every stalk seeking attention with vibrant colours... Makes the whole vase attractive. Not bad...

Seasons changes;

Life proceeds.

For every harvest;

There are heartwork.

We reap whatever we sow.

What was that dream?

2010-08-24T22:36:00.003+08:00

I learnt 2 things yesterday:

1. I'll stand in this possibility until it becomes reality.

2. Perceived value never has more value than its actual value.

As we turn towards the Sun, our shadows fall behind.

We can be products of past, but not prisoners of past.

That's the privilege of walking with your Creator.

That's the responsibility of living life to its fullest.

That's the power of hope, energy of living and strength of love.

I'm still trying to pull our that slot of memory...

I feel I'm missing something I cannot afford to, no doubt I can very well live without.

不甘愿... -.-"

My memory irritates me again.

A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.

2010-08-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

There are many types of Sunshine:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UZLsggi7acI&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozFprFxI6Uo&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rc2jsjnt-HY&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Irujh2bNkk&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_TGFXc5XQo&feature=related

There are many people who took their Sunshines for granted, realising too late.

There are many people who burdened their Sunshines in the name of love.

This one really brings me out into the Sunshine, ha!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtQrPSgfAWo&NR=1&feature=fvwp

All Sunshine makes a desert. -SF-

We can have fun in rainy days too.

Fairy tales are no longer attractive.

When you know what real is.

I may be confusing, forgetful and always shifting grounds...

But there are only few things I've set my heart upon.

Don't you?

Lalalala~

2010-08-22T00:14:00.004+08:00

It was the same watch;

same blouse;

same bus stop;

same thoughts running through...

I'm so blessed.

I'm thankful.

Exit restrictions through the door of freedom to bondage.

This is why we feel taxed as we gain control in life, isn't it?

Or is it just me?

But who cares now, it's zzz time!

No wonder they say the best is YET to be...

2010-08-20T22:39:00.001+08:00

To be all that we can...

... isn't at all easy.

Blues finding way.

2010-08-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

It has been so long...

Since I've been so upset.

It has been so long...

For such a good release.

For all that you don't understand, neither do I.

For all that you're working on, also am I.

Are we mirror who never meet?

Or shadows of unity?

We are always so near yet so far.

I'm not as good as you see, really...

Lord,

Take it my birthday wish for the next 10 yrs: Let him see me wed.

I need Your permission for my selfishness.

:(

2010-08-16T16:07:00.001+08:00

I really hope...

I can recall that dream.
How can I forget something I am determined not to forget?

Get over, quick.

2010-08-15T01:09:00.003+08:00

There are some days you feel especially nostalgic about life.

There are also some nights when imaginations over-ride logic.

When you feel so small and stuck and cannot do anything but wait.

And sometimes I really want to jump out of the track because it's such a torture.

I have a weak mental.

I hate waiting.

Zzz...

Prayers need no passport :)

2010-08-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

I'm on 3 days MC since Tuesday.

And going on therapy on Fri afternoon.

Thus, for this whole week, it's a half-day work.

I believe in eternity.

And the little eternity this life.

I remember the loves.

And the little lovely actions by far.

I hope for fulfillment.

And the blessing that follows after.

I'm so glad, so thankful, so hopeful.

Of church, of future, of self...

Have you received Christ?

You have to!

It's a never-will-regret journey into the Light.

Poem from Zhi Ying :)

2010-08-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

Dear Lord,

When I am lonely and when I feel despair
Let not my ailing heart forget you hear my every prayer
Remind me that no matter what I do or fail to do
There is still hope for me as long as I have hope in You.
Let not my eyes be blinded by some folly I commit but help me to regret my wrong and to make up for it.

Inspire me now to put my fears upon a hidden shelf
And in the future never be sorry for myself.
Give me the restful sleep I need, before another dawn
And bless me in the morning with courage to go on.

National Day

2010-08-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

Anyway, I am so impressed by Melissa today.

Really.

I think Wenjie is really impressive.

Also, although I am sick, with inflammation at throat and resulted in cough, but I'm still glad.

Glad that I'm still improving in health generally, that I will continue so!

This year's National Day is a whole new experience for me.

It spurred me to think alot.

Nothing is impossible.

I believe in the minority possibility.

I told her today.

I will tell him one day.

Goodnight Singapore!

I am thankful

2010-08-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

I am foremost thankful for the God who heals.

I know that beyond the physiotherapy, beyond the supplements, beyond the sleeping early...

It was the prayers, the great God who is always in control, who heals.

I am so grateful, you never know how much being able to jog that distant meant to me.

It not only meant I can play hard, but rather, I don't have to burden people whom I love.

I am also thankful for parents and grandparents, for their patience.

No matter where I drift and how hard I fell, they are always there to lead.

Nothing will stop their love for me and my love for them.

I want to please them as much as I can, I should do that, for the fact of how they raised me.

I am thankful for my cg, all of the cgers.

Especially Wenjie, Mel and Fion, people who never went further than a call away.

The cg pushed me to grow nearer to God, in many ways.

Cg opened up a new phase of living for me to explore, living for others.

You never know how much you shaped me.

I am thankful for someone out there, so far away.

So all the care and concerns, shown and kept.

All the effort to tune me back to God, in so many ways.

Thankful for the understanding and patience all these while.

I am thankful for all my church leaders, their lives and testimonies.

How they have sowed in tears helped us to have chance to sing in joy!

Their countless hours thinking, planning and brainstorming fed us into fatty sheeps.

Their prayers, wisdom in understanding God's word and love to warm us, built us up.

How thankful can I be to have people living for the benefit of me, at no cost!

Half-filled cup.

Yes, there is emptiness.

There are areas I struggle so hard, things totally out of own control.

But there is also fullness.

Memories, growth and progress.

Harvest, results and love.

I prefer to see the fullness in days of emptiness...

Leap Over?

2010-08-04T17:25:00.002+08:00

There is no balance in opposition.

You just have to take sides.

Ya.

Placing a bet... With life.

2010-08-03T20:20:00.005+08:00

Being obedient to God in all areas isn't at all easy.

But for all the effort and time-test, will come sweet sweet harvest...

And for all that I care, I want that sweet harvest.

That blessed and warrantied future.

If He dares promise, He will deliver.

If he dares promise, He will help him deliver...

Shiok Ache :D

2010-08-02T11:14:00.003+08:00

I think 0102 did a great job on Sat and Sun.
With the people invited, with the effort to run and play bball...
Surely the results are not due to our grace but the grace of God.
We can't stop learning the homework of putting ourselves down.

After the 2.4km+ run yesterday(- the aches -.-"), I feel good!
Na na na na na na!
I know that I would!~

Sometimes life is all about taking the Right step...
Although the whole world says NO!!!
Or all parts of your body, mind and accumulated laziness says NEXT WEEK!!!
Just as long we cross the hurdle to make the Right decision, we're bound to leap into greater heights!
Even if we do not physically, we did mentally :)

I thank God so much for my recovering health, really...

Life Story~

2010-08-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time...

... And they lived happily ever after.

We fill up the story between the lines.

We decide how interesting our lives can be.

We make sure it is meaningful and beautiful.

We have to pay the consequences for every actions.

Not just in marriage terms but also with bro and sis, with God.

Any tiny little hard work, will ink our story.

And these lines which determine our last line.

"And they lived happily ever after."

That's at the last breathe, of our days on earth.

To an eternal joy with Christ our Master :)

Never tired...

2010-07-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

You know life is not always easy...
But there are some things in life, which at the thought, lit a dark day.
There are some words in life, when heard, makes a bitter day sweet.
There are some kindness in life, when received, draws a rainbow over the rain.

And no matter how these things, words and kindness repeat, you never grow tired.
You'll always appreciate and will be thankful.
The sweetness will always be there.

Thank you for the +ive energy...
:)My life is great because I have a great God and also a great church!

In a bus stop in a forest :)

2010-07-29T17:26:00.000+08:00

My blog's NOT DEAD...

yet :)

Who am I?

2010-07-04T22:59:00.002+08:00

The battle inside is the worse ever.

I am flower quickly fading...

Headache, Heartache.

2010-01-27T10:30:00.003+08:00

There are so many things I do not deserve.
Although I wish to be able to reject those grace and mercy showered...
But I know I can't.
I am in no position to be prideful to reject anything.
Just like the beggar along the street who met the Prince.

You may see it as selfishness or greediness.
You may say that I don't deserve which I fairly agree.
But I don't want to give up what I've received.
And want to start giving them back.
Wait for me.

I am so sorry.

Happy New Year Everyone~

2010-01-05T14:37:00.000+08:00

we got this little eternity in this life..

Hahaha~
:D

Heart, please thud louder...

2009-12-18T17:22:00.002+08:00

That I may hear you speak.
And know what you say.

We're are the same, aren't we?

2009-12-01T16:21:00.002+08:00

I like people who are honest.

People who care less of what others think of them, but more of who they really are.

People who are not too concern of their presentation, but their performance.

People who aren't too worried over results, but to concentrate to do things right.

People who don't sugarcoat, but be truthful in expressions.

People who are not too engrosed in beautifying themselves, but to beautify others.

Sometimes, people really are disgusting.
Just like myself to others.
Bah...

Rainy days and Running noses come together

2009-11-24T15:30:00.001+08:00

How can you know when I don't even know?
I will figure out soon..

A Key Paradox:

2009-10-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

In order to be relevant, stay ancient.
In order to move forward, connect to the past.
In order to serve more people, first get away from everyone.
In order to speed up, first slow down.
In order to accomplish more, go take a break.
In order to make a statement, first be quiet and listen.
In order to get moving, make sure you are well anchored.

Summary: The secret to being effective in the now is staying connected to what is eternal.

;)

One at a time please -.-

2009-08-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

My brain is just this small.
Nothing bigger.

So everything please Q to get in...
Don't come all at once.

Get in line, get in line!!
Q number, Q number!

Bridge over troubled water

2009-08-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

When youre weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
Im on your side. when times get rough
And friends just cant be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

When youre down and out,
When youre on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
Ill take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
Im sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.

Next please..

2009-08-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

"... take note of those who live according to the pattern we gave you."

I'm glad I waited for dad to come home...
Although he's forever teaching his "give-in-to-others" approach.
And even though it isn't feeling nice to give up fighting for own rights.
But the tension is good.
The endurance is worthy.

I learnt something today, a hard way.

God, I did it...

2009-07-17T23:55:00.001+08:00

I hope I do not regret.

Don't corner me this way..

2009-07-13T15:49:00.002+08:00

I'm super hungry but still I want to say:

I recaped the feeling of "vex" today -.-

2009-07-04T14:25:00.003+08:00

"Whatever will be, will be."

Yellow Colour

2009-06-02T23:03:00.001+08:00

It used to be one of the colours I wish I never like.
Cause it's kind of weak, too neat... And also, too motherly?
It seems to be too gentle for fun, too soft for reality.
That's why I'm so proud I never like yellow...

But recently, I realised, yellow is a subtle colour.
I want to learn to be yellow.
Yellow goes well with almost all colours, don't believe?

See:

Yellow Green = Mel's braces

Yellow Red = Pola snacks

Yellow Blue = IKEA

Yellow Orange = They are twins la...

Yellow Black = Bee -.-

Yellow Purple = (Just a nice combi =.=)

It's a blending colour, never asking for attention, but always there to mix around and make the picture colourful. It is seldom remembered, often forgotten but still stays faithful as a good partner.

I think... Every woman should learn how to "blend into the background" like what Justus said, and let people around her to glow instead of herself.

That's if you understand what I'm saying.
It's hardwork.

Nice Note.

2009-05-31T23:45:00.002+08:00

When you think you've encouraged someone, you are encouraged.
When you think another has brighten your day, you have brighten theirs.

I think this is what church-life is all about.
Everyone for another more than self...

Go right place to look for things.

2009-05-19T12:49:00.004+08:00

Have you ever watch kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listen to the train slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterful's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
Slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you asked "How are you?" did you hear the reply?
When the day is done do you lie in your bed;
With the next hundred chores running through your head?
Slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child, "We'll do it tomorrow"?
And in your haste not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch and let a good friendship die;
Cause you never had time to call and say "Hi"?
Slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere;
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you hurry and worry through your day;
It's like an unopened gift thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower.
Hear the music.
Before the song is over.

***

We look outside us for happiness:
We search happiness in parties, relationships, in money, in ocassions and events. Sometimes we look for it in winning competitions, in success, in completion of projects and also in reaching work-targets.

We've forgotten... Happiness is right inside us.

You don't find it outside:
Recall the aftermath of all the parties and ocassions and events, how quiet and lonely the whole house seems. We forgot how people fail us once and again, but still we want to depend on them to make us smile. We also forget life lessons that poor people are remarkable reservoirs of energy and knowledge. We always forget that money can't rule presence of happiness. Its not stress that kills us, it is our reaction to it.

Look in! Because happiness is INSIDE us:
We feel happy when we give. When we lend a helping hand. When we are poor but still managed to buy others something that makes them smile. Happiness is not found when we are selfishly wanting to fulfill our own needs. It's when we find ourselves in useful positions that encouraged another being, built another tired soul, or rescued someone from hell... When we let down our selfishness, we find happiness.

How can we be joyful when we do not even fulfill the purpose of our creation? How can we know the purpose of ourselves if we do not communicate with the Creator? How can we communicate with the Creator when we are so busy?

Sometimes life gives us reasons to drift away from Him. Other times it provides tempting short-cuts to get short-lived joy. Sometimes our chores gives us excuses to procastinate the pursue of true happiness, or the way to true happiness. Sometimes laziness sets in, making it hard to do what we dislike and those that seem hard work-silent before Him.

Whatever the case, we are the ones deciding the ultimate choice.

All we see of someone at any moment is a snapshot of their life,
in joy or despair.
Snapshots don't show the million decisions that led to that moment.
~Richard Bach~

Your decision today makes your tomorrows to come...

No pain no gain, anyway...

2009-05-15T13:11:00.000+08:00

Walking by the border.
I like.

Measure up to?

2009-05-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

"He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet He did not open His mouth;
He was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,
so He did not open His mouth."
~Isaiah 53:7~

Man wants to silent Him.
But He was bigger than death.

I should not forget... :)

Today is a... Wow O.O Day

2009-05-02T00:51:00.003+08:00

What a weird reminder from dad...
Not that I know of, but what a thing to take note.

I mean like... ... ...

It's always my dad knowing more about me than I know myself.
That's not fair.
But even before that, Xinyi said the same thing.
-.- zzz...

And I wonder how true they are.
And I wonder if that's good.
And I wonder what I'll do.
And I wonder what He says.

But still, I think it's so far from what they say la.

世上的一切都要废去。。。唯有 : )

2009-04-27T21:18:00.007+08:00

到了明天，今天也变成回忆了。
这世上，应该很少值得回头的原因。
就算是失去了好东西，也将会有宝贵的学习。
很多时候，学习的价值比原本想得到的更可贵。

所以，不要随便后悔。
因为在后悔的过程中，也许就失去没必要失去的机会。
即一直痛苦望着过去，也不能好好把握现在，这样不好。
所以，时时都要感恩。

顺利的时候，感恩。
不顺利时，感恩。
不明白时，还是感恩。
看不下去也好，感恩。

因为往往令我们失望、担心的，根本不值得一提。
抓住“唯有”就够了。

Nice stomache...

2009-04-23T02:49:00.004+08:00

"There's special someone waiting for you lx tell you."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAH!
Win liao lor.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!

Privilege of doing it...

2009-04-21T00:21:00.004+08:00

Mustn't allow myself to deceive myself.
Mustn't give in to temptations.
Mustn't take short-cuts.

To wake up is a terrible thing to do. I dread it, always. But it's essential. Necessary. MUST. If not life will be meaningless, although zzz is super enjoyable, and essential too. It's like appetizer. It exist because of the main dish. But it seems like I've always enjoy it more than what I should enjoy in. Why -.-"

But to encourage myself,: At least I see it. The problem with myself, that is. Although alot more to go, but this one is a big one... So I'm pretty glad that God still mirrors it to me. Thank You. At least only 22 yrs like a blind fool. However, if I still refuse to do anything, or give up half way to do something, I'll be a self-acknowledge fool. Someone more dumb.

You must give some time to your fellow men.
Even if it's a little thing, do something for others - something for which you get no pay but the privilege of doing it.
~Albert Schweitzer~

I was thinking at how we hurt each other. How we mindlessly wound people around us. How we intentionlessly stab them. Maybe sometimes we didn't hurt them, but we allowed them to bleed. We see their wounds go on unattended, because it'll hurt them to dress the wound up, and. The people may not appreciate... So we lost the courage to do what we should do.

How nice if God gives us Christians all nice and beautiful robes to wear, high and admirable positions to take and also pleasant pretty roles to play. We should be given only tasks to say good things which encourage people, sweet things to build people and also to do things people like. God should give us the secret to evangelise and not be mocked. A wise way to convince people out of sins and yet be appreciated by them. He should put more "advantages" into being a Christian.

不过怎么办呢。。。

A Christian's life isn't like this. God repeatedly remind us not to be conformed to the pattern of the world, not to gain likings from man, not to desire applauses from flesh. He clearly told us people will dislike us, betray us. NO, HE SHOWED US THAT in His own life on earth. He prehand us the manual book of a Christian walk: a tough one, a lonely and often misunderstood one. Since we're never wiser than Him, how can we expect to lead a life like Him (the good ones), and not like Him exactly (those sufferings)?

We have to turn our brains around and acknowledge that: There's no "smart-way" to Heaven. 因为天国是努力进去的。。。I used to admire people who are looked-up upon by people, and wonder how they did it. And I may have tried to be like them, using different ways to win people's hearts and to make friends. I used to hate to say nasty-true things to people. I used to get irritated when people do not appreciate good intentions and appreciate sugar-coated words instead. I used to feel frustrated when I have to give up what urges inside me in order to "fit-in" the crowd.

Coming soon...
Transformation in progress...

In another direction.

***

Don't fall into the drain without the barriers oh!

Dedicated

2009-04-16T14:19:00.003+08:00

Thank you for whining till morning.

I hope you're better.

You should feel better...
Because we sent SOS to Heaven, didn't we?
:)

This wasn't the intended post...

2009-04-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa
Men have named you
You're so like the lady with the mystic smile
Is it only cause you're lonely
They have blamed you
For that Mona Lisa strangeness in your smile

Do you smile to tempt a lover, Mona Lisa
Or is this your way to hide a broken heart
Many dreams have been brought to your doorstep
They just lie there, and they die there
Are you warm, are you real, Mona Lisa
Or just a cold and lonely, lovely work of art.

Kind of nice, isn't it?
:)

Down right disappointed.

2009-04-12T00:10:00.004+08:00

With myself la.

CL is so selfish even in the day when the whole world is commemorating Christ's crucificxion and His resurrection. What a let down la. LOUSY. When people are doing outreach, she's thinking about her own problems and worries over her own small small issues which are not at all important at this present moment. Worse, feeling emo over missing pieces. So self-centered. So impatient.

There should be no more shopping and movies, no more late nights and emails until she finds Jesus back to the centre... The heart played too much. It's starting to not obey. And given CL's character, she may do stunning acts and enjoy it as much. So I shouldn't decide what colour to dye first.

But.
Lord still take in losers, right?

I'll be the U-turned loser then.

I'll not say yes.

Delication.

2009-04-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

Actually I wanted to do something very bad.
But now I've decided not to.
So let's make peace.

Best gift - Be there.

2009-03-22T02:09:00.003+08:00

I don't know what I can give.
So I'll just be there.

Wait for me...

Zzzz on visit -.-"

2009-03-11T03:52:00.002+08:00

I used to want to be a teacher. Then a lawyer/doctor, realising they earn much more -.-". Then a pastor. Gave up not long after to wish to become a pastor's wife. Finally... A normal housewife of a random guy -.- (YA, I KNOW...).

But now, I am a tuition teacher. A part time child care centre care giver. I want to be a someone who gives my students something to take home to think about, other than homework. I think character building and moral development is the foundation of education. If not, we are growing wise idoits who know the answers but don't know the reasons. Rich in knowledge poor in wisdom. "Someone's sitting in a shade today because someone planted a tree yesterday." ~Warren Buffet~

I always love this:

"Even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth: You owe Me. Look what happens with a love like that, it lights the Whole Sky."
~Hafiz~

Although it's a SUPER random chat, but it does make some sense. And although it's from a dumb friend of mine, I'll still remember. That love works. Love solves without disolving. A silent sound, a mute language, an understood comunication.

My grandpa went for another eye check today. And because he didn't drop his eye medications as required, his condition isn't improving. The doctor sensed he didn't like to go back for appointments so frequently so he threatened that it'll be a weekly appointment if his condition isn't improving, and said to me, "I'm kidding. Just scaring him." And winked. Zzzz~ Super lame. But I acted on because to let grandpa take his medication seriously...

I've always think that grandparents live forever. No matter how long they live, they die the day I die. My life brings them everywhere... Phase after phases. Just like someone said, "They never go out of fashion." They will always be trapped in my generation, my time. Until the day I lose my memory, if I can only keep few things, let it be God's words from them. Let it be childish leanings and playful tricks that dwells along with us.

Because it's tiring growing up.
How nice if time stalls in the sweetest moments.

But how unsweet will sweet be in a life without bitterness.
Because there is sadness, there will be happiness.
Because there is bitterness, there will be sweetness.

I have so much to learn. How to connect smoothly and disconnect gracefully. How to enter slowly and exit systematically. How to understand yet not give in. How to agree and yet not be confused. How to be flexible yet stay firm. How to pass my theory test... The clutch and accelerator are driving me mad~

I dislike being mould. It's painful, you know. But I look forward to being renewed. It's exciting, you know. That's why I always like the things I shouldn't. And dislike the things I should. Maybe I should align with something and measure up with someone you may say. If that's you saying that, I have one more to learn: To ignore your ignorance.

BLAH.
Can sense lots of frustrations from this post?
Thought voicing may help.
But apparently it's not helping...
I wish you can just "pop".
And disappear...
God shouldn't like me now...
I will make Him like me more tomorrow.
Give me a "weak-break", please.

Intentions' Worth

2009-03-08T23:44:00.004+08:00

I used to think right intentions always have the right of way.

Just as long we're having the right intention to things, doesn't make our idea best.

Because apparently there are alot of good intentions which cannot take place concurrently.

That's when priorties are important.

And that's why right intentions doesn't necessary rule.

There are still alot of good intentions to weigh and sacrifice in our messy life.

Not too clear cut and direct at times, but can work some sequence out.

Using more brains than feelings will minimise regrets.

I never want to regret in this.

I don't want to allow.

WAIT.

2009-03-02T00:47:00.003+08:00

I wait for buses. I wait for school results. I wait in queue for consultation in hospitals. I wait for business opportunities. I wait for smses' replies. I wait for the bathroom. I wait for water to boil. I wait for the food I ordered. I wait for growth, for maturity. I wait for time to tick by.

But... Everyone grows tired of waiting eventually.

Especially when there isn't progressive results.

I am impatient.

And have low tolerance to poor sap false hope.

I like green beans. Because it didn't take too long for the beans to crack and to grow sprouts out of it's hard shell. And very soon, we can see a shoot from the bud. This is a worthwhile wait, ya? Because you see reults, your wait becomes valuable.

On the other hand, waiting for something which is unlikely to happen is devastating. It kills every present second, deprives us of better attention spent, ALSO! It makes you regret. Yucks. It's an irritating feeling which makes you feel really silly and dumb. I dislike feeling myself that way...

So, I'll make sure I don't anyhow hope.

And don't anyhow wait.

Thus won't anyhow feel sad.

HA. HA. HA.

A post for myself.

Transformation in progress~

2009-02-28T01:09:00.001+08:00

They keep hinting.
I keep avioding.
They keep guessing.
I keep smiling.

This is periodic life.

Grandparents.

2009-02-23T22:19:00.002+08:00

Such a feeling's coming over me,
There is wonder in most everything I see.
Not a cloud in the sky, got the Sun in my eyes.
And I wouldn't be suprised if it's a dream...

Everything I want the world to be,
It's now coming back especially for me.
And the reason is clear, it's because you are here.
You're the nearest thing to Heaven that I've seen.

Something in the wind has learned my name.
And it's telling me that things are not the same.
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze,
There's a pleasing sense of happiness for me.

There is only one wish on my mind,
When the day is through I hope that I will find.
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me.
All I need will be mine if you are here.

I'm on the top of the world looking down on creations

And the only explaination I can find,

Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around.

Your love puts me at the top of the world.

Closure

2009-02-18T00:10:00.024+08:00

THE NEW CG:

~0101~

My Special Guest: Nat

I LIKE THIS!!!
Hahaha...

In midst of my father's deperation, he said,

"如果你温柔一点，我会给你礼物的。"

-.-" I will, I will try...
Why people aren't convinced?
Just don't flip to see me TOO gentle.
I think you'll be the one who's not comfortable with it, not me...

***

Why I can't logged into MSN after people I chatted with logs out?

Let's talk!

2009-02-16T20:27:00.003+08:00

I did my fingers, finally! And for once, other than only myself liking them, others ALSO. I still think that my taste has no problem, BLEAH. Just different sometimes, maybe? Anyway, I'll try to be a little more compromising to other people's comments next time. More compromising than before. Because life is living for others than for self, ya?

Taking about this, I showed obituary section to the kids. The notice about excavating graves after a period of time due to shortage of land... And it suprised us that there are so many "unknown and unclaimed" bodies in Singapore. And I told them to treasure their families and friends, so that we do not die this way - unknown and unclaimed.

***

Let's talk Valentines now!

It's nice to be single. Because you receive MORE THAN ONE valantines day presents! Hahaha... You receive more sweets, chocolates and cards from different people than those who are attached. So people, another wise reason to stay single!

My 14/2 was people-packed. Not romantic at all, but super fun. No soft jazzy music, but lots of laughters and cheers. I start it and end it with a GROUP of friends and I still think life should be like that, shared to everyone. So I shall enjoy giving and receiving gifts before I don't have the chance to... I told WL that she should treasure my present for her, because after she's attached, there will not be gifts for her anymore, HAHA!

I receive more presents than cards, which is rather disappointing... I would prefer a wordy card you know... Ling Xuan was shy to give me a pack of sweets -.-" Which I don't understand why~ Char gave a chocolate stick, that's nice. YQ gave me a pack of sinful stuff which I gladly appreciate! x) LX - 2 nice biscuit chocolates together with a tiny letter. He still remind me to be 坚强 at the end of the letter =..= Alan got tipped by someone, I suppose, that I like frogs. He got me a froggy coin-bank. Guess I'll transfer all my coins there tonight! Vic got me some food with an important reminder in it which will take a life time for me to "finish". So should I thank him for a lifetime supply of food? Joyce and Derrick, a more valentines-like gift, flowers. But that's something I don't know what to do with...

***

Let's talk Mission Trip!

I can't wait... To revisit the river bank. To see how much taller they are. To make new friends. To see their excitment and smiles. To see how Morning Dew's boss is doing. To buy presents from Makro/Distrubution centre. To sun-tan behind the pickup, enjoying the sceneries. To JUST BE THERE FOR EVERYTHING. Because not being there is the greatest suffer. Missing is hard to endure.

I can't wait to be happy, seeing people blessed.

Photos long awaited... 2

2009-02-10T00:37:00.054+08:00

Our soccer team.

Our coach.

Charis most expensive fingers...
We exchange nothing for them.

Where are all the mothers?!

How mushy can our friendship be in Charis...
Aiyo, hair stand!
But I like.

Our families...

Our faintS:

and their supporters... -.-"

Older, better.
Renuion!

We gave our hearts. To our church.

The standard couple wear for festive seasons!
Cool~

Voice at the back.

2009-02-09T22:55:00.004+08:00

Times are different.

It's not that we didn't work, that we didn't reach our aims.

Is that we worked too much, that we can't reach them.

You are right that I've always made "not necessary wrong things" really WRONG. And "not all bad things" really BAD. You're right that I have to be convinced to accept new concepts. Ya, I'm someone ignorant and uninterested in current fads and manners. And yes, I always take my wonted place, unwilling to shift. Inflexible, traditional and old-fashioned thinking = CL.

That's my point all along:
We're TOO different.
So don't try. I'm not changing.
Don't expect. I'm staying this way.
How can different directions head to the same place?
Even if it's able, the journey has itself defeat its purpose.

***

Amazing how patient our LORD is to us. I mean it's like: We keep falling, He keeps picking. And how stubborn are we going the wrong way, how persisting will He be to guide us back. Where's the worth of that lost sheep found? So exactly what difference does it make to have us with Him? His Kingdom is not anything lesser without me. Surely He is self sufficient...

"God whispers in peace and shouts in trial" I remember, from somewhere, someone. How true. We need not wait for God to shout. Heed when He's just gently reminding and mercifully warning. Better turn around fast when the ark's still open for us. That's when Whispering Hope hums in my mind.

People, don't be discouraged nor be frightened by the tough paths ahead. Tough times don't last, tough people do. Remember?! And for sure that God's grace is more than what you and me can imagine, don't hestitate to come with faith! The best promise has delivered to us: God's grace is complete in our weaknesses.

Rick Warren says in Power to change your life,: "Come to God and repent! Ask for forgivness thousand times a day of the same thing, He'll still be there to extend His mercy." This fused me with much faith. Faith transfer?! Haha... Maybe. But wonder how is RW thinking about Obama's seating. Pastor Paul has placed his peace.

Sum Up = Thumbs Up!

2009-02-02T23:27:00.004+08:00

(Ignore the outdated photo-date.)
Nadal should lend Federer his trophy. So this man don't cry biting lips... Competitions are ruthless, brutal emotionally. When it hurts inside you, it's the most disturbing and never leaving kind of feeling which makes you near death but not dead. That's why I'm never strong for tough competitions, it's always them tearing me. Aiya, but who cares?! I'm so far from the worry~

Brought grandpa fo check up today. He has been complaining blur visions lately these months and then we realise that he is 90 without specs! o.O Amazing Lord's protection! Thank You. However, we met with a very unfriendly yet very prominent (I was asked by counter staff if I want to change other doctors due to long Qs) doctor - Dr. E-Shawn Goh. He flirts right infront of us to a pretty nurse, and flares up at another (also quite pretty) doctor for being absent from Friday's project discussion. Infront of us, too.

So was quite pissed off for running into another mad doctor again -.-" And his hair style... No use describing here, I should secretly take a photo for you next time. You may think he's some kind of "nerdy turned mad" person. The most irritating part about him is when grandpa fails to stay in position infront of the machine for a long time because he's shivering due to the cold long wait, he actually was close to shouting when he frustratedly asked me to keep him still. And, I flared up. After the one hour testing of different things at different labs, I scolded him. I told him I wasn't paid to nurse his patients and that he was not only inconsiderate but also unfeeling which made him fail the bare minimum of being a doctor. Then he turned really politely-sacarstic to ask help from me. Although it isn't nice either, but I prefer that sacarsm to random howling. x(

Ever since I shifted to new place, followed by a packed series of events, my lifestyle became out of routine and varying regularly. Sometimes one meal a day, sometimes dinner and supper is only 2 hours interver... Every system went gaga and every routine disrupted. So recently my body has decided to use its meanest way to protest: Gastric Pain. And I hate it. Because one of my favourite times are meal times, but now, I can no longer enjoy eating to the "Ok, I'm happy and done!" level now.

________________________________________________________________

IF YOU READ TILL HERE, JUST A NOTE TO TAKE: ABOVE ARE ALL SMALL STUPID ENCOUNTERS IN MY LIFE.

(鸟话, in short.)

SERIOUS SHARINGS BELOW:

任职犹豫。每个人都有自己做选择的空间。但都必须负起决定后的责任，不是吗？

但既然都一起同步前进了，就会迈向同样的方向。
千万别掉队。

Don't be the weak chain.

Purple Light

2009-01-30T23:12:00.002+08:00

Purple light in the valley,
This is where I want to be,
With my friends, best companions,
With my rifle and my buddy and me.

SOC, very jialt,
IFC, lagi worse,
Everyday doing PT,
With my rifle and my buddy and me.

Booking out, see my girlfriend,
Saw her with another man,
Kill that man take my girlfriend,
With my rifle and my buddy and me.

ROD, back to study,
Got degree, so happy,
Can't forget, still remember,
With my rifle and my buddy and me.

Purple light, at the war-front,
There is where my body lies,
If I die, will you bury me,
With my rifle and my buddy and me.

(Credits to Fairfield Methodist School; National Cadet Crops Dept. --- Lance Corporal Chua)

***

Shouldn't MOE start reviewing on their modules and strategies?
Or at least have a tighter control over what student leaders are up to?
-.-"