It's beyond self...

People, my internet is down again... Sounds pathetic huh. But the truth is even if it wasn't down, I'm still too tired to blog. Everyday is a battle between Zzz-body&mind and studies+projects. It's so tiring to juggle school and the activities I have well. I mean, there bound to have edges I have to choose, some sacrifices I have got to make. But, I must say, life is definately more worth living like this. At least I know, I worth the hours I breathe!

Well, there are plenty of thoughts going through my head each day. So many that I can't keep track. However, there are the few which affects me greatly. One of it is definately my cg.

Although I only meet on weekends but my my heart is drawn to them whenever I'm walking alone. Although we seldom talk on the phone, but my mind pops images of them whenever I lay on my bed. Thinking of what wonderful servants God is going to mould them into. Thinking of what kind of parents they will be. Thinking of how I can help them make it through the army without disgracing Him. Thinking of their school life, their church life, their family life. I also think about how we're going to step ahead as we matures as a whole.

They are the ones who motivate me to set a good example many a times. They remind me of the importance of never going off-track ANY MOMENT. They remind me that I can never say, 'Wait, I'll be right back. Use me later.' to God. I can never leave my devotions because that would mean that I wouldn't be able to share concepts, facts, my analysis with them. They help me draw nearer to God always. Most importantly, they remind me that they are the future of Charis. That's why I take pride in leading this cg. Because I know, we are the mould of what Charis will turn out to be in the next 15-20yrs or so.

I never dare to laugh at their dreams of becoming youth workers, church pastors, worship leaders... Because those who laughed at Noah build the ark were drowned. I never dare to doscourage them by saying, 'You're too young to set an example to them.' because the Bible says otherwise. I never wish to stop their wild and creative(at times very inpractical) ideas in serving, because it's of good intentions. Didn't the Lord says that it's the heart that matters in the end?

0203, we don't have to stayover every weekends or call each other everyday to build our relationship. We don't have to be in the same cg to maintain our friendship. The love that was built around us is strong enough to hurt and anger me whenever you are sliding off the path. The more we love the good things, the more we should hate the bad.

There are so many people taking 'leave' from the work of God in this generation, each being busy of their own interests, their own sinful desires and their own ambitions. Have the purpose He planned in us being able to fulfilled? Or are we so self-centred that we can't see any other meaningful areas we should invest our time and effort in other than our own concern and attractions? It's time, time to release the power of God that's within us.

Eph4:12. Do all that you're given well. Not just because your Charis needs, but also because we need to be trained and moulded and disciplined... In order to be used. Face your challenges today for a better tomorrow!