Back in place~
Dust, swipe, wash, sweep, mop... My blog isn't dying yet! No, not until I declare so. But maybe it's getting a little old and ragged~
I thank God for Wednesday. I finally got an answer, or should I say, to have a chance to untie a knot which is really bothering. Misunderstandings cleared, questions answered, doubts explained. So I was really high that day, "high" as in close to God -.- It kind of brought me back to where I belong, all along. And frees me from being, or trying to be, another person just to fit in. It found me my actual identity, that I need not feel pressured nor upset for being different. No more guilt of not-up-to-standard, neither questioning myself as I compare.
That's why Wednesday was important. I shared in detail with a friend the message, and how it impacted my life and also what am I going to do next. Seems like that friend don't really understand, but will not dampen my excitment of this new treasure found which filled my heart. Just as long as I know I'm on the right track, I will insist on it, and people whom meant me well will be glad.
Grandpa was hospitalised that day, also. Due to low blood pressure and some complications of liver failure. He's 91 and he's old. I said an extensive prayer for him, telling everything I wanted to these few years. All the blessings that I failed to shower, all the love that I failed to express, are all in that prayer. The summary of the prayer: His will be done in all our lives, not man's.
I am joyful whenever I think of people like Sean, Wenjie, Char and Mel... Whenever I feel like giving in to my own selfishness and to ignore whatever pleases God, their thoughts will pull me back, "It's not only me here struggling, people out there are also trying to be a step nearer to God. I want to be with them, to struggle." I pray that our gracious Lord keeps them free from temptations and build their faith for more challenging works ahead.
For all the changes we are familiar with in Charis, TQ, I am excited. But everynight I'll doze off amist my family discussions, unless held at Mac, haha! God is surely to work something out of nothing. He is specialised to perfect His will using imperfect persons. And here we are! Nothing but weak-weak people with a life of a blink. He will use us when we offer ourselves.
"There's something about 'living sacrifice(Rom 12:1)' is that they crawl away from the altar."
~RW~
Woot! Going to play Wii tonight. Not at Henry's place this time but at Yu Shuang's house. The excitement is not in the game, although it may seems to be. I hope my life I can always play Wii for a greater purpose, and have good results in the game... x( After that, going to visit grandpa late at night. Hope he's filled with love, joy and peace!
There are alot more things which happened, but there's only one more I want to update, and that is:
"I don't even have 5 credits to buy Weiwen's bird-day present in facebook!"
Happy birthday, girl.
posted by CL @ 9:50 AM
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