Delicated to Wen Ni

happy birthday!

Wish you all the best in many many many more years to come!
As you grow in the Lord's house, unleash yourself and find your life's purpose fast.
There will be trials, yes, but they come and go.
There will be troubles, yes, but they are temporary.
There will be disappointments, yes, but love will cover them all.
There will be disagreements, yes, but in difference we are united.
There will be problems, yes, but we have an expert-problem-solver God.
There will be obstacles, yes, but we have already secured end victory in God!
My beloved WN, I appreciate our time together...

And more than stopping at to wish you a happy birthday, we are realistically walking towards better birthdays as we lead a more fulfilling life after knowing who holds our tomorrow! Although it's a little sorry to know your birthday falls amidst exams, but keep that joy and excitement that... God has indeed blessed you with 13years of smooth and safe living! Don't forget Him as you live your special day today. :)

Different people celebrate birthdays differently. And the value of your birthday and its impact to your life is differed by how you choose to celebrate it and on what purpose. Let's say if I chose to sleep that whole day, I've just decided to sleep my birthday away. And the value of it becomes little and the impact of it to my life may not even last 24hrs.(Not long after you'll feel tired again, right?!) Also, I know people who celebrate 21st birthdays by watching R21 movies. Negative value and negative impact. Not forgetting some who look forward to M18 movies and entrance to clubs after their 18th birthday...

Are these the best we can make out from our birthdays? Are these freedom the reasons we look forward to our birthdays? Will we be really happy being free to do as we wish? And of all the crazy stuff that we did, how many of them actually make our life more fulfilling and meaningful? Put non-Christians aside, they are not obliged to make Go-intended-choices: Are we Christians making of these chances to bring a touch of eternity on earth?

We are supposed to, and we should naturally do so if we really have Christ living in our hearts. So, it is quite ridiculous to find myself convincing another Christian what clubbing brings or what damage tattoos have... And now, churches actually have adjust their timings of service and classes to match the working time of members. What is this...

Someone once told me that we have to slow down for the slower ones to catch up with us in church. If not, at the end of the race, you see no one behind and everyone lose the zest to follow. I do agree with what was said, but I had my 3 fear:

1. In the mist of slowing down for others, I ACTUALLY REALLY SLOWED DOWN.
2. We will gradually lose the purpose for slowing down we once had and lose the energy for move back to the initial speed again. Then, I ACTUALLY REALLY SLOWED DOWN.
3. I still doubt if this will be Jesus way of doing things.

So as usual, I asked dad. And he seems to answer be right away without thinking. He says, "If you want the slower runners to catch up with you, you just have to run faster!" Well, I -..- for a while and I finally understood. Slowing down for others is not the way. But rather, speeding up and running the extra mile on behalf of them is then the way it should be.

Take for example a person is unwilling to commit to an area of service. And because of that he/she cracks all kinds of excuses to siam. We can say that, "Oh, the person's not ready to commit to that level of serving." This is slowing down for others. However, we should take more time and effort to care for the person, try all ways to let him submit to God's Word and then challenge him. This is then what it should be, running faster for the slower ones.



Rick Warren once said:

"Knowing the reality, ignoring the ideal; that's complacent.
Knowing the ideal, complaining the reality; that's immaturity.
One who is mature can stand between the ideal and reality and cope the tension between the two."

I feel so girl.

Since grandpa held my hand to cross the road on Thursday night, I've went back to the primary school days, the little girl. As always, I'll automatically stop before any junction to wait for the big hand to hold mine before setting out to the wilderness of roaring fast and fierce tigers and lions. The same firm hand held mine, then 11 but now 21 years of age.

You understand the kind of shyness yet appreciative feeling? Everyone's looking but yet something beyond those staring eyes plead, "Please... Don't let go yet,". The next thing I know onboard the bus, I'm like an idoit. -.-" When I pray for people I love to stay the way they are, not leaving, I'm praying for myself. I need them at their positions, at times, more than they themselves wish to.

But, there are things on earth beyond our control, situations against our will and happenings not as planned. There are people we have to bid farewell oneday, no matter you like it or not, no matter if you're prepared to do it or not. "Why?" at most we can ask, but never "No!" can we suggest. The Creator disallows disruption to His order of cosmos.

Just as I want to rebel against the absolute He holds, this tiny but firm voice questions my rebutt. And fear grips me from moving forward. And then the contradiction is left to be cleared up. This is the problem of knowing the Truth: You have to agree with it, if not, it judges you. Then those are the times you regret knowing them which caused you stuck no where.

I'm not saying that we only choose to understand Truth that you're agreeable with, but rather, just whining of the trouble knowing the standards yet not reaching them. Furthermore, since it's Truth, lying to self by denying them doesn't help at all. Because knowledge of Truth judge us in this temporary life. However, Truth which are unknown judge us in our eternal life. Meaning to say, cannot siam, either way also die...

Don't know if you were to understand what I'm trying to bring out. If you do, surely you've experienced what I described. If you don't, go ask mummy for a cup of milk and go to bed, you lucky chaps. And enjoy life as it is this way now...

For all that have been, thanks. For all that will be, yes.

THANK YOU, LORD

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Thank you, Lord,for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,I can learn to care.

I thank you, Lord,with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help, lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

I thank you, Lord,for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord, that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face, and it's there you belong.

But it goes against the way I am;
To put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.
'Cause when those trials come,
My human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

However, fear and twisted kind of unwillingness kind of managed to find their way into these chances, and killed all after some time. And I realised today, again, that I still don't want to miss out. You're the faithful One who will finish the good work that You've started in every man.





To live more voluntarily is to live more deliberately, intentionally and purposefully -- in short, it is to live more consciously. We cannot be deliberate when we are distracted from life. We cannot be intentional when we are not paying attention. We cannot be purposeful when we are not being present. ~Duane Elgin~

你，怕死吗？

死亡，真正可怕的原因是什么？

是将死的那时刻吗？

还是死前的痛苦？

又或者是死后的遭遇？

最近，死亡、病痛，都不再如以前遥远了。

• 一位年轻朋友第二次检查患有癌症。


• Ahma 放弃旅游的机票入院观察。


• 小丁在9月1日过世，死因还未确认。


• Mrs. Fong，我中学英文老师在9月4日中午过世，死于癌症。


• 今早在准备上班时，听到救护车的紧急信号，心里默默祈祷。

生命是一阵风，快速眨眼而过。

生命是一朵云，出现少时就消失。

生命是一叹息，走到最后也不罢休。

但愿我的家人、亲戚、朋友们，得着今生的健康。

我所爱的人，得着永恒的福乐！