Just walking in the Rain

$10.90 today, abit out of my average budget ehh~ But I did tried my best today. Just hope that I can sleep well tonight and stop dreaming, it makes me so TIRED. And the irritating part is, I don't even remember my dreams... Duh.

Anyway, today the rain was fantastic! The mini storm was just in time, the "going-home" time! Uaually I will call if my grandparents can bring umbrella down to pick me up at the mrt, but today I decided Not. How long have I wanted to be in the rain? How could I miss this chance?! So I s-t-r-o-l-l-e-d home... And don't know why I keep singing "Just walking in the Rain" in the rain. Well, I made sure that no one sees laa. It goes like that:

Just walking in the rain
Getting soaking wet
Torturing my heart by trying to forget
Just walking in the rain
So alone and blue
All because my heart still remembers you
People come to their windows
They always stare at me
Shaking their heads in sorrow
Saying: Who can that fool be
Just walking in the rain
Thinking how we've met
Knowing things have changed
Somehow I can't forget

Clarify that I have nothing especially to forget or remember huh~ This song just kind of flashed in my head... But I do remember someone told me about when to be in the rain.

I'm feeling kind of messy these days, but! Peacefully messy. Get what I mean? Many things happened these days, on DAILY basis. Plus the people involved usually are whom I care too much that I can't pretend not to see. I can seem unconcern, or not even bring up, but deep down in me, I know that I care. BUT! Everything is going to do especially well because I'm starting to feel helpless and feel more need to finally get God involved! I love you guys. When I say I love, I may not be able to provided exactly what you needed(lots of times I don't even know what you all need), but the intention to give the best is definately there~

The most room space avaliable to improve on is me, myself and I. Wasted so many chances to be kind gentle and patience... I hope I can change. And my hope depends on God. He's my hope. I want to be shaped into someone gentle(can you imagine me being gentle?! -.-), even thought it may mean wearing skirts or speaking below "noise-level"... I can still be hopeful and believe that He'll change me, not I change myself using willpower. I have more to say when I have time, going to meeting now~