It's just that one love too much and the other love too little. Whose standard?

I don't understand why is it that men usually are the ones to decide to start or end a relationship. They start off to go after a lady and cherish her till someday he gets tired and he makes the first move to ask for a break up. (Ok, I'm generalising, but that's what happen to most people around me...) So, I intend to be the one who intiate to start or end a relationship in future. (Ok, this is crap.)

But thinking in another way, why are there so many young souls starting BGRs at ages as young as Pri sch? How many of these early lives really know what they are giving away in exchange for something which wouldn't stay? If they knew then, will things turn out differently? Or if not, how regretful will one become when he/she look back their walk of life? I mean, was the effort in the realtionship worth what it really can produce in their love? But anyway, how many people nowadays seem attracting anyway?! So it isn't that hard to be a happy single!

I believe love grows love. Was massaging my grandma just now and listened to how she love grandpa and how grandpa love her. Their ways of loving is surely very different from a young couple, and theirs may seem less loving. But, if this kind of love can keep grandparents together till old age, isn't it good enough? Isn't this what we ask for? Isn't it better than short-crazy love? I remembered sharing with someone I once prayed for something not a normal person would. That is to let God reserve the worst that's going to happen to my future spouse for me to go through with. Dumb isn't it. But because just like in Charis, 患难见真情嘛！And that friend's reply was indeed insulting, "It sure is going to happen." (-..- Oookaayy...)

Sometimes it's not what you have to gain that is important, but what we have to lose. So don't grab too many things that doesn't belong to you at this instant because you will find yourself having to leave those you thought was yours. And you'll never know how lively childhood fun really is, the moment your heart out-grow your age. That's something you cannot find it back...

Call me a coward who doesn't dare to getting into relationships. Indeed I am. I know I haven't had the courage to feel the slap of love yet.




Like I always say,
没有不该的期望；就不会体验不需的失望。。。

Flattery is a chewing gum. You can enjoy it, but do not swallow it.

There's someone whom I understand most.
There's someone whom I have wronged for quite some time.
There's someone whom I think is a genius.
There's someone whom I learn most from.
There's someone whom I dread to entertain.
There's someone whom I always dream of.
There's someone whom I would like to meet.
There's someone whom I like to be with.
There's someone whom I most respect.
There's someone whom I wish to apologise to at this instant.
There's someone whom I hope will recover.
There's someone whom I couldn't forgive totally.

If I were to be self-centred, I can say:
"I'm an ordinary being.
I have feelings like anyone does.
So listen to what I've been feeling so far."

If I were to be pessimistic, I can say:
"I'm an ordinary being.
I have feelings like a kindegardener does.
So who cares how I feel anyway."

From He's point of view, He said:
"I can change how you feel."

And... That's all I need to know.
Because sometimes I hate feeling what I'm feeling.

Sometimes the noblest act is just another way to fly our own kite.
Becareful, becareful, becareful...

I will becareful.

用今生活出永生！

假如有一天，我身旁的人不说一声就离开，我可以接受吗？
家人就别说了，我想会哭到断气还不能甘心吧。
若是会友、同学、组员、亲戚、朋友，我的反应会是如何？
嗨，就连想象的勇气都没有。。。

其实人都是很脆弱的。
随时随地都有可能跟世界道别的。
倘若你下一秒的生死存亡都没把握，你会在意什么呢？

没洗的盘碗？
没烫的制服？
没扫的房子？
生意的管理？
学业的文凭？
戏剧的结局？
银行的存款？
你应该不会再在意它们了。
它们也将一瞬间变得毫无价值。

老迈的父母。
老伴的健康。
小孩的前途。
教会的发展。
团契的对象。
组员的生命。
自己的灵命。
你肯定会开始留意这些了。
这些也将一瞬间变成生命重点。

若今天就将被接回天家：
我想我会很后悔。因为我有许多浪费的时间，精力。
我想我会感到很遗憾。因为我还有未成的梦想要争取。
我想我也会喜乐。因为我很爱睡啊！

世界原本就不是我的家。。。

做梦了

All I have to do is to Dream.

Fell asleep mugging for Quality Management. And in that short short nap, I had a crazy dream! Basically, I jumble up different events and different groups of people I know into a story. Used to think I have a small brain, but not anymore! To prevent myself from forgetting, I scribbled some snap-shots and happenings down quickly. (Maybe I'll match them with the real future in time to come?! Heh Heh...)

Dream.

On the whole, it started with going to church retreat camp but ended up living there -..- Years passed and the number of people there increased. We lived together, got married, have kids and still lived together. Hmm, -.- I know. Thanks WJ for the pics! (Think those pics impacted well in my dreams...)

Reality.

Simpily hate the transition from dream to reality. Bleah! Rather not have dreamt. Hump... Now I kept thinking of the scenes with the notes infront of me.

Small mistake = Small consequence.
Big mistake = Big consequence.

No matter what, neither of them are Forever.
So... Be glad!

让我多爱一点点。。。

神把许多东西放在我们眼前就是要操练我们眼睁睁拒绝他们。
他要让我们学习舍弃，学习齐优先次序。
往往在患难时，就见真情了。

在软弱，看见神的刚强。
在有限，看见神的无限。
在罪中，看见神的赦免。
在公义，看见神的慈爱。
在莫测，看见神的信实。
在不足，看见神的富足。

亮光需要黑暗的秤砣来越发耀眼。
Love is not needed in those who are already lovable.
Clam is not needed in already still water.

越是这种情况，越要小心谨慎。
今天和昨天的讨论让我感触良多。。。
把最重要的内容在最轻松的方式带出来最有果效！

吾爱吾家

爱护华恩的，我一定敬爱他们。
破坏华恩的，我绝不坐着不理。


这就是所谓的爱屋及乌吧？

为了它，我还可以放下更多。
面子、自我、懒惰、玩耍、金钱、时间、精神、代价。。。


无论安居乐业、贫穷困苦、健康软弱，我都爱护它、保护它。
我为此立誓约。
（Ok, I'm attached)

我爱我家！

对属你的没兴趣，大可放心。

I want to hold my wedding at our very own place.

I want my funeral to have happy tears.



The scale of emotions these few days was great.
Don't try fluctuating it more.