Thursday, October 25, 2007

今天被骂得好过瘾。。。

整理好我的生命,准备好好的传福音!


就求你接纳这条小命吧。。。

Monday, October 22, 2007

I've come a full circle.


I'll bring my own umbrella.
No, I don't have to.
Because it's not going to rain anymore.

I've always kept it unread in my Bible.
But I read it today.
And so I can throw it away...

Just thought you need to know I've gained enough courage.
So don't dare me.
I'm far from wherever you think I'm at.


(Because I have more than enough encouragements for this week...)


Thursday, October 18, 2007

鬼才会明白。。。

如果给你一位你这一生再也找不到的好朋友,一定会好好珍惜。
但如果告诉你结局是将失去这位朋友,你会有不一样的打算吗?

换成是我,我就不会投资太多在这份友谊上。
你可以说,“那不是很没有人情味吗?”
或,“就是将失去才要好好珍惜现在嘛。”
但我始终觉得这两个理由都不成立。
因为尝过得到后而失去的滋味。
所以,最后的终点对我而言是关键。

人生当然不由得我们决定结局,好多的事都不知道后果。
因此,信心很重要。。。
一旦失去了信心,哪还谈得上希望和梦想呢?
若是你,没有了希望,你还会有积极的举动吗?
若结局都不是积极的,那又何必享受不属于自己的甜头呢?
这样的后果往往只会找来多余的痛苦。

生命里当然也有好多失去了的机会和溜走的时光,一一成为回忆。
对我来说,回忆不能填补失去带来的感受。
越甜美的回忆反而带来更深的伤痕。
我们可以用尽意志力,耗尽所有的能力去克服、安抚自己。。。
但我们的心不听使唤,失去的又找不回,怎么办呢?

梦是因为有希望才存在的。
是不是没有回忆就不会悲伤了呢?
我懂人的心真的很难左右;这个道理我怎么会不理解呢?

所以,我拿不出信心,不是小问题。

Monday, October 15, 2007

CL loves...

Just reach home sometime ago.
I have something to say!


Firstly, to 0203: 1 PAT ON YOUR SHOULDERS.
Well done! We know when we did our best REMEMBERING all the instructions...(Or is it me only?!) And this goes to those who are not on the stage as well. From God's view, the hidden backstagers are always magnified. YOU, are magnified in my eyes as well!

Secondly, to ZL: 2 PATS ON YOUR SHOULDERS.
One for your coming exams, mug harder! And another for... You know what.

Thirdly, to LX: 3 PATS ON YOUR SHOULDERS.
One to remember what we should and shouldn't do. Two for the effort you've put in. Three for just being here, living healthly, with us.

Fourth, to WL: 4 PATS ON YOURS SHOULDERS.
You need that to heal any hurts. No energy for regrets and guessings, use all the energy left in the forward charge!

Fifth, to Darryl: 5 PATS ON YOUR SHOULDERS.
For covering areas where not another one can. Without you, it'll be just different.

Ok, the number of pats are quite random, and of no sequence of preferences or biasness... Just want to tell everyone I love them. Or to those I've once felt irritated at, I've grown tired of disliking anyone, it's so sickening. I want to love! I love my family, my classmates, school mates, near friends, far friends, churchies, all your parents and grandparents + anuties and uncles... Can't I love them without knowing them?! I love everyone who stepped into my life(by force or by chance), and also those who have left, plus those who are walking in. I love my children to come! I love my in-laws! My new mates! My boss! My upcoming neighbours!

In any ways that I've hurt you, I'm really sorry.
Let me love you...
I want die and live loving.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

HELP

I just swallowed a chewing gum... ... ...
T..T
Opps, I'm dying!

Hope it doesn't jam up my intestines.
I still have lots of "to-do" in life...


Wednesday, October 10, 2007

回应。

常听别人说我很没仪态,很不雅观。
但是我都不理会。
因为我知道一个人的内涵不是由他有的外在而定。
可是,没有形象的人也有自尊。
你的要求太过分。
办不到。

老虎再怎么饿,也不会吃山上的草。我也有自尊。


Sunday, October 07, 2007

时间真的很奇妙。
它能使人不知不觉把痛苦的汗水消化成甜美的回忆。
把伤口符合;把苦楚化解。
啊,它对我们多好。。。
但,它也毫不留情夺取美貌、健康与人生机会。
换来皱纹、脆弱和生命尽头。
哦,它好残忍。。。

生命的光彩是由自己创造出来的。
时间的好坏也是因我们如何使用而变得更有价值。
人生的许多机会是靠自己把握才拥有的。
人生碰到的问题只不过看我们如何处理。
又怎能责怪外在的因素;抱怨自己的遭遇呢?


想念当初和时间赛跑的境况。


今天我消耗太多精力了。。。

Friday, October 05, 2007

为什么每次睡前都要说这么多话?

今天妈妈竟然叫我作出我自己都不敢想象的事。(不是什么坏事啦。。。)
这一定是心理学的第几个招术。
Reverse Psychology?!
哈哈哈,我没上当,我不会这么作的!
有读心理辅导的父母就是这么难应付。。。

但是今天没有机会和小组一起‘做’经文,感觉好像少了什么似的。
这样想起来,我的人生好像真的大部分围绕着教会活动。
这样健康吗?这样不是很没乐趣吗?生活可以这样维持吗?
当然咯!!!
宣告:这就是我蔡呈灵的人生!
你为我叹气也好,悲哀也罢,who cares?!
一辈子在他的殿里是我的梦想。
目前眼里的“殿里”只有华恩。
爱死她了。 XD

明天。。。不。是等下,就要去考察营地了。
希望我更加倍有用。
没用也会装成很忙、很参与的样子。
不,不能用“装”。
因为我的内心就是很有热诚的嘛。。。
因该说只不过是“反应”了内心的迫切。

龙祥:
靠着那加给我们力量的;“凡是”都能做!

靖娟:
星期六你大可放心我不会比你美丽的啦。


Wednesday, October 03, 2007

HUMPH...

My PSLE boy is so nervous he's making me somehow nervous too...


Now I can't sleep.
T.T

Do Your Best; God Will Do The Rest!
(That's what I told him.)

Monday, October 01, 2007

领悟

要蹲得低;才能跳得远。

以上的话很有意思吧。
人生岂不就是那样吗?

越谦卑的就爬得越高。
越谦虚的就得的越多。

Looking for hidden secrets?! BLEAH.
生命遇到风险也不算坏事;有时前路崎岖也不见得苦。
只要心里有对方向的寄托;只要自己内心有基本力量。
哪怕每一天都是刮风大浪;都将会稳妥喜乐的过每天。


把我踩得越扁;更储存我反弹的能力。
伤我越重;更让我集中精神积极成长。


因为。。。要跳高,就要蹲得低。