旧式；Old Fashion

就一定要跟得上潮流才算不落伍吗？
（现在流行什么了吖？怎么都给不了例子呢？）
无论如何，总觉得任凭潮流决定如何表现自己的人真可悲。
因为他们已失去自己。
忘了自己有自由意志。
他们偶然也忘了带脑。

身为基督徒更不该如此。
我们怎么可以随波逐流？
就算步伐快又能炫耀什么呢？
就算穿得华丽又有让谁欣赏？
难道科技发达人就不需死吗？

世人也许看不见永生，但我们必须认定自己只不过是客旅。
若为今生享受付上永生福分，值得吗？
“必须用永恒的眼光过今生，才能在今生活出永生。”
-蔡牧师-

People spend money they haven't earn;
To buy things they wouldn't need;
For people they don't like.
-Will Smith-
FOR WHAT?!

Live life simple and good.
That's why, polo-T is my all time favourite.
Let me be the usual Old Fashioned me.
Let me be me.

Use Your Life to Encourage Each Other!

Philip B. Crosby was the VP of Quality at ITT for 14 yrs after working his way up from line inspector. He created the 'Absolutes of Quality Management' philosophy, largely responsible for bringing quality to the attention of top corporate managers in US.
This is what he says about quality:
"Quality is free. It's not a gift, but it's free. What costs money are the unquality things---all the actions that involve not doing jobs right the first time."

This is from a man's point of view on QUALITY. Now, what does God says? What's a quality life? And how to turn our lives into quality life? God have something to say, let's hear!

That is why the Lord says,
"Turn to me now, while there is time! Give me your hearts. Come with fasting, weeping and mourning. Don't tear your clothing in your grief; instead, tear your hearts."
Return to the Lord your God, for He is gracious and merciful.
He is not easily angered.
He is filled with kindness and is eager not to punish you.
Who knows?
Perhaps even yet He will give you a reprieve, sending you a blessing instead of this terrible curse.
Perhapes He will give you so much that you will be able to offer grain and wine to the Lord your God as before!

He says it's ok!
It's ok if it's lousy now.
He says He don't mind if we're broken down.
He never intended to record our imperfections, our confusions.
He hopes these shortcomings will somehow awake us.
From our weariness to His graciousness.
We still have Him.
We're not doomed, we're people with hope!
With hope comes joy, peace and love...

Passage taken from: Joel 2:12-14
And as for our Joel, appreciate all the effort for just being present today. For just being there, eating the shrimps and fish(oh it tasted great!). For just running about taking photographs. For just walking about with a rather stern face...
You look great in red!
You'll look better in red with a smile, ha...

What's wrong?

Maybe I hindered your growth.
Maybe I obstructed your development.
Maybe I prevented you to venture out in faith.

I don't know why I'm starting to lose faith.
I've drained all my left motivation.
I'm starting to rely on encouragements from parents each night.
Or that I just have to fill out this position coz there's no one else?
Is it that we just have to make up a cg?
Have I expected too much?
Or am I so demanding?

I don't know why I'm so discouraged, so dishearted.
I felt extra after going the extra mile to make sure things are right.
Yea, maybe that's rather extra, thinking back.
I lead infront and realised everyone's busy with their own life, not even bothering.
When I hope you be equipped, you tell me you have your exams.
When I hope you learn to enjoy fellowship, you tell me what time you have to go.
When I hope you stay beside me to just hear me talk, you're busy looking for the next train.
When I see your holidays are coming, I no longer dare to hope.
Because that's so much for all that I hoped.
Hopes made me end up consoling myself.
But the cycle repeats...
FOR 3 YEARS.

For once in my 3yrs, I actually hope to be transfered out.
Who knows, you'll be better without me.
And that actually, I was the barrier all these years.
If that's so, I apologise for blocking your ways for so long.
If I were to know it earlier, I can go.
Even if I don't bear to...

怎样做才对？

我很喜欢想。
想有的没的，好的坏的，真的假的。
幻想新加坡打战的情景。
幻想作妈妈后的自己。
幻想父母、爷爷奶奶过世后的日子。
幻想呈皿比我高的一天。
幻想不同的人在教会做事的表情。
幻想要在哪里拍结婚照。
幻想华恩自己有会堂又被挤满的画面。
*还会幻想自己从神学毕业台下来的样子。*

真的是想太多了，常觉得自己很无聊。

但。。。
你知道吗，神常常在我的幻想中对我说话。
信不信由你的，但这是我的亲身体验。
有时幻想合神心意的事时，就会感觉很平安、喜乐。
若不是，总会有声音告诉我这不是我的人生。
不知不觉的我就常用这种方式想明白自己的生命。

当然，这不是唯一也不是主要方式来听神的声音。
其实我也很清楚这样危险性蛮高的。
所以很多不算“感觉平安”的事我也试试看，以免错失良机。
但重要的决定当然不能这么做咯。。。
我们都知道自己的感觉其实反应了自己自私的想法。
那倘若声音告诉我的不是自己想要的，怎么办才好？

为了安全感，我会走一步看一步，小心翼翼作选择。
这样，错了吗？
草率、轻易、随便、任意忘危自己作决定就对了吗？
说好听是诚实面对自己。
说难听点，还不就是目中无人、自私自利吗？
生威基督徒的我们，已经不再自己活着了。。。
就算是错过了，等一阵子回头看，也只不过是一场回忆罢了。

为了华恩，我可以勉强自己放弃看为“难得”的一切。
为了那不赞同的声音，我也不可以假装听不到。
你太高视自己了。
你其实也没那么重要。

Tomorrow, 3 rounds stadium. MUST.

Sometimes, it's nicer to see from afar.
From far, everything, everyone look better.
As you wish, call that self-deceit.
I'll still stand a distance, because I know how nasty reality is.


You should learn to enjoy life as much from far too.
When you can't see, you can still hear.
When you can't hear, you can still listen.
When you can't listen, you can still feel.
When you no longer feel, you no longer hurt.
Ok, I'm not as emo as it sounds.
But pain keeps us aware of an unwanted life, no?

*Praying for speedy recovery and some miracles for all your health...

Unfold Yours... （星期日）

我常都为了华恩的大小事务感到兴奋的时候。

但从未有过这种兴奋到脑子都不能想别的事情的境界。

哗，想到能在我少年的时期就能看到属于华恩的教堂。

做梦都没信心梦到。。。

昨天我们到两的地方屋舍华恩可能的聚会地点。

第一是在Jurong和Clementi的中间。

那里也是为道的崇拜地点。

他们说现在价钱非常便宜，是很好的商机。

地方是不错，在那里买几间unit成为崇拜地点也是可行的。

看完之后，有些人就回去了，那剩下的人就如常的去喝咖啡。

有一位会友（家庆）建议我们可以到他有的lobang看看，也许有帮助。

我们就去了。

第一件比之前那间更好的一点：它在兀兰这区。

有去的人知道价钱，看到地点后，同声认为：“这里更理想！”

以为只是自己这么觉得，但怎么知道每个人都这么想！

所以，第二个优点就是这里给我们的兴奋是更同心的。

我们得到应许后上到二楼、三楼看看。（对，它有三楼！）

越上一楼，大家就更肯定：这里好多了！

今天在学校时，听到了别的小组在讨论。

有人说：“做什么事都有原因的。我们要找出原因。”

神不会无缘无故让一群会友与牧师有同样的看见，意象。

华恩的大大小小一定要谨慎侧耳而听，明白神的心意，顺服他最终的安排。

不可以让这件事成为让魔鬼留底步的机会。

无论如何，我们要团结、要同心协力、要彼此感染。

因为我们都是在同一条路奔跑的嘛。

若神将给我们的祝福成为我们的绊脚石，那不是本末倒置了吗？

我们也当分清重要和紧急的事。

所以，我常提醒自己在兴奋中还必须清楚，谁说的算。

昨天，我更清楚为何神把不一样背景、学历、年龄、性格、想法的人在一起。

因为能和不同的人同心，真是太享受了！

消极来看，我也更清楚为何我们年轻人很难把团契做起来了。

因为我们不愿意和我们不同的人同心。

18-05-2007

去医院总让我心情矛盾。

那些病人真叫人心痛，他们的痛苦我们旁人却无能为力。

勤快积极的医生护士们却让人有安全感。

今天本来是去医院探望一位老人家，谁知自己的公公也入院。

虽然没大害，但看得出。。。

他老了。

病房没有冷气设备，但身旁海放着一件毛衣。

一整天都在休息，但始终还是累。

这就不就是老吗？

就连最壮的运动员也需面临身体败坏。

医疗人员一天也将躺在病床上受医治。

人人都有一死。

对病者：

也许没有人能够了解你们难熬的夜晚。

也许没有人能够体会你们肉体所忍着的痛。

也许没有人能够明白你们无奈心情。

生老病死虽是人无法逃避的真相，但那肯定不是你我存在的目的。

只要清楚自己活着的意义，知道自己人生的目标，哪怕在病床会没指望。

人给于你们的帮助，希望，关爱，喜乐，安慰也不过如此短暂。

唯有一样是能从你自己内心发出来的保障、盼望。

没有一个人事物能让你与这宝物隔绝。

就算是死亡，也只不过是着盼望的开始。

那就是：神的爱。

有了神的爱，再痛的疾病也能忍受，再消极的检验报告也能充满平安与喜乐。

有了神的爱，病者也能在病痛中高声赞美，在黑夜里证明神的荣光。

他们可以比有钱有识之士更积极的看待生命。

因为你我的生命超越今生，我们是有永生的。

对医生护士：

你们承担重要的责任，背负着承重的压力。

但你们的梦想带来许多祝福。

救人，一定要救到底。

救人的今生，别忘了他的永生。

有些梦想是值得我们专心致志追求，放弃次要的欲望。

多伟大的工作，无论多困难都别放弃！

对大家：

好好照顾身子，别随意生病。

还有！

生命的目标其实也不难发觉，只要你找着正确的方向。

我们活着，不单为了自己。

我们每一个人都有比这世界更伟大的价值。

我们是为了永生而活在今生的。

知道永生的目的地，今生才能过得有意义嘛！

更多用心吧！

常常觉得脑很厉害。
因为它可以麻醉心。

脑有太多理论的分析就会让心的功能死。
日子久了，渐渐的，心也就不再容易感动。
为了保守我的心，我必须更多用它。
更少有理论上的分析。
我不要被脑麻醉了。。。
因为一生的果效是从心发出的。

放心吧，就算逼我离开，我也不走的。
对华恩的承诺。
（倘若神有别的意思，那承诺就废掉哦！）
神最大嘛。。。

太阳就要出来了。。。

今天的倾盆大雨让我更体会到幸福的滋味。
早晨的雨简直不饶人，一打开大门就被喷湿了。
鞋柜也遭殃。。。
Ah Ma还因为担心，而陪我走到地铁站呢。
瞧她，自己都需小心翼翼走好每一步的老人家，还忙着帮我遮雨。
心里突然有冲动陪她再走回家才去上学。
看着她那双比我脚小一寸多的脚，还真希望雨可以越下越大呢！
没有雨，哪个20岁的人有家人陪上学啊？
如果可把我们的每一步一个脚步都录下来，那该有多好呀。
感到孤独时，可以用它来提醒自己：世界还是有爱的嘛。
所以，我常求神让AhMa长命，一定要来得及参加我生命的每一个典礼：
毕业典礼、订婚典礼、结婚典礼。。。
她非在不可。

人生已是这么短暂了，何谓消耗力量在短暂的今生里呢？
不耍花枪；不玩把戏；不用技巧。。。
只要诚恳的面对。
我用我的方式来面对。
用我的方式诚恳面对。

他的承诺。。。可靠。

人的方式是代价。
神的方式是恩典。

就因为这样，我们可以的。
因为我们什么都没有；谁也不是。

20大木瓜

我的生日快乐了。
谢谢大家，真的。
也许表达不够，但心里的喜乐比礼物更长存。

很多时候，担心也是多余的。
没有依赖着以前当作宝的人、事、物，也一样可以过得好。
其实紧紧抓住的也未必重要。
自己以前看重的也未必是重点。

我也在学习了解呈灵嘛。

无需道歉

人为什么会道歉呢？
有时，道歉并不是因为知道自己错了。
也未必是承认对方是对的。

道歉也许是一种姿态。
一种礼貌。
一种表达方式。
一种责任感的催逼。

有时，它是一种逃避。
一种避难的方式。
有时，它是一种放弃。
一种累的表现。


先去搞清楚道歉的原因。
不然的话，这样做根本没意思。

：）

代价让我们更珍惜。

人生固然不能从来。
但人生可以有未来。


可是。。。只能有三个愿望吗？

低调和冷漠只是一线之差

Had a chance to visit East Coast Park at night. It's totally a different feel! I don't know if I enjoyed the sweaty walk, but I feel recharged. Not because of huge flying aeroplanes nor contributing bicycle pathways... Sometimes the things which sucked most of our energy and time, didn't benefit us as much as one little flower along the sideway does.


Sometimes when I look back, I realised I can only move forward.
I know one day, you'll thank me for all that I did.
And I'll leave my tears to that day...
Cheers now!

Announcement:
Ahem, wrapping skills improved!
Wrapped all 20 presents myself hor.
And they did look... ok. *Winks*

Always, always, always REMEMBER:

CL loves her boys...

Yes, ALL her boys.

Ya laa... ALL her BOYS.
-..- Nites! Praying that your headache will subside.

施恩者，更喜乐。

必须一直在想，怎么再给于。

给于社会。
给于父母。
给于长者。
给于弟兄。
给于姐妹。
给于朋友。
给于泰南。
给于三福。
给于病者。
给于邻居。
给于弱者。
给于华恩。
给于自己。
给于上帝。

因为“给于”就是爱的表现嘛。
我要更“爱”；更多给于！

（但我今天收到3份生日礼物哦。。。谢谢你们的爱！）

神的勇士们！加油！

就算你最看得起的人，一天也会使你失望的。
人、事、物也好；灵、魂、体也罢；总有一天会消失，会软弱的。。。
“唯有主耶稣基督的慈爱永远长存！”

他既看顾天上的麻雀，又怎么会忘记那在角落默默忍受的你呢？

阿卡的弟兄姐妹，今天的信息很简单：
我们爱你们！
继续在不一样的战场，越战越勇！

It's all about Loving.

Overheard a conversation of a wife on phone with her husband on my way to school today. "Remember, you didn't just married me. You still have our son." So I started asking myself: "Why did we all press on?" Guilt? Responsibilities? Duty? Conscience? Obligations? Ethics? Memories? Hopes? Where's that thing that started all these? Where's the love?

Ok, just some random thoughts which concluded,
"Recovery of Love" is important.

***
Another thing today. The Gay Divide. "Can conservatives and liberals ever see eye to eye?" Maybe you think you've heard enough about the debates on gays and legalising them. Maybe you have your stand but was critically shaken and you now no longer hold any stand. Or maybe, you, like me, just cannot understand what's there to debate when the principle is definite?

You were born not because your dad married another dude. Nor is it that your mum married another babe. Likewise, God created Eve for Adam, not another Adam for Adam. Ok, let's just assume you deny any Garden of Eden. And maybe to you human rights exceed moral, freedom surpass values. You may beg to put aside God and all kinds of regulations... As you proclaim gays are contributing citizens and that we should understand their expressions and respect their decisions, have you ever imagined if they were your sons and daughters? Will you, any more, UNDERSTAND AND RESPECT as you claimed you would to other unknown aunties and uncles' children?

Of course we have to understand that changing of hormones is one important factor which led many into these unwanted relationships. Sure we want to hear, understand and respect.

BUT!
After we hear them, shouldn't we help them?
What's the value of the respect that you're giving when it's not out of love?
The "Hearing", "Understanding" and "Respect" becomes no meaning and purpose when it's all out of the boundary of TRUTHFUL-LOVING.

以弗所书4：12

继续为了更想要的而放弃想要的真是不简单。

那些我行我素大声喊着：“找自己”的人，往往迷失自己了。

It's only when the tide goes out that you learn who has been swimming naked.
-Warren Buffet-

(No relations with RW, ok...)

此生一定要精彩！

很多时候，快乐的回忆使现在的痛苦更难熬。
不是吗？
但精神的麻木，实际上就是一种心灵的绝望。
而痛的感觉就表示没有失去生命力。
痛感因此也等于还有希望！

知耻而后勇。
只要生命在，信心在，有什么困难是我们不能克服的呢？
希望是我们前进的巨大推动力。
因为它能唤起我们的希望感，使我们产生进步的力量。
自我激励是人最强而有力的能力！
没有人能把这种力量从我们身上除掉。
除非，你把它交出来。

朋友，别喝太多咖啡和茶。。。

我的力量差不多要用尽了。
你又忍心这样考验我到几时呢？
帮个忙，放过我。