To my dears:

Never wait for people to GROW. To improve. Coz time never improves a person. And good harvest requires hardwork. I, for some reason hate to surrender and wait, thinking that time will make a person grow. Something must be given, something more than time can provide.

Now think about it. Footprints are never made sitted. You may feel unfortunate to be my cg, but I never like to see things happen and sit back and just WAIT. Waiting never develop anything fruitful. Character is never developed in a quiet condition. Our efforts are needed, now WAKE UP!

I refuse to let people hurt me with their little actions.[I get hurt or not is another thing~] Coz hurt people hurt people. And I hope I have no involvment in this cycle. Read James 3:16 "For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work." Believers [Yes, those who claims to have Jesus in their hearts...] in churches slashes each other with their words, their actions. The way they question the authority, God, the way actions are done in deliberation to anger people who comes in their way.

May you and me not be the ushers who opens the door to satan into our fellowship, and welcome him to stay. It's time we grow out of self-centeredness and jealousy. Hatred and dislikes, loneliness and self-pityness are doors to satan. Remember he starts every evil by stealing? Then killing and destory? Get back what we were taken away off. The love, the unselfishness, the humbleness, the perserverance and patience. The ZEST to serve Him. Where has all these gone to? 0203? Find them back before we talk about real revival.

How can we pray to see God's kingdom come before we even start to work? I mean, you dare? He left His vineyard to us, servants of His. You want Him to see stealings and killings among His people as we sow and harvest? What a disgusting picture... But as we mentioned, we need the Spirit to live out this adnormal commandment, to love your enemies. We need His love, not using ours. So, if you have recieved Spirit, use His power. To those who are not even sure if you have the Spirit in you, ask God for His presence.

Let there not be laziness, jealousy, studborness, lies, haterds, strife, pretendence, proudness, self-seeking attitudes among us. Our aim was to glorify God, isn't it? How do we do that if we hold these in our hands and bear these in our hearts?

Let's go in dept into lives. Not mere "hi-bye" faith.

Time for weeding and pruning, people!

Best friends...

Many people come into our lives and changes us abit, here and there. If not, at least, they put some thoughts in our lives that made us think. Twice or thrice. Some came in to build, some to tear, some came in unintentionally, some loved unconditionally. Some tried to discourage, some spend countless efforts mending the wounds. There will always be different people coming in and going out, we just have to accept.

I love being with people who brings the best out of me. Covers my weaknesses infront of people, but uncovers them to me. And face them with me. Those who do little things to encourage me in areas I'm struggling, either with a promise or a pat. Those whose presence made me confess everything I'm, because I know it'll be safe to say. You know they are the ones who see you through instead of seeing through you. They try their best effort to lend their hand. They stay put and do nothing when they didn't know how to help me. But being there doing nothing is just what I needed. They scold me for not having faith. And demostrated out a faithful life to follow. They've always shifted my focus to the unfailing awesome power from above.

Friends, I have many. But how in depth are our friendship? How deep can we go into each other's lives which hinder us from God? Who can I trust? And who can depend on me?

Dad. Mum. Grandparents. You brought the best our of me. Thank you for being there when I quarrelled with classmates, pray for me when I was hospitalised, or proudly introduce me to your friends. You believed in me, all that I am. You speak for me when I was speechless. You see for me when I was blinded. You encouraged me when I was motionless and all tired out. You made me have faith in God, and see that without Him, we're nothing. You shifted my troubles from my heart to joy in Him, by living it out. You may not believe it, but you are my best friend. [opps, sorry ZL...]

You made me believe in fairy tales, as you create yours. And now I know how much effort that's needed, how much grace and mercy you've asked from God. The more I know you, the more I wished to be like you. The longer I live with you, the more I want to stay on here. Come stay at my future home? I can't promise a big house, but a generous home... We may not have cars, but we have "kars" to walk to the nearest kopitiam for supper. We may not have spare cash to give, but we defiantely will shower you with cares.

You made me understand the life of a follower. Now let me live out and you get the benefits of my life!

And for the above dream, I out them in God's grace and mercy.

Another 24hr past~

Rick Warren's new book: "Answer to Life's Difficult Problems" TADA! $14 plus I think, Life's bookstore. The subtitles are juicy enough. I'm getting one for sure. But don't know by when will I finish it.

I'm going on a shopping trip tomorrow. AND watch out for my new auntie outfit, people. I've always love your comments. HAH. (my foot~) But hopefully my taste improved. If you really can't stand my outfit, sorry.

I don't live for your eyes anyway, but I'll try! x)

My New Hobby

Today, erm, it's YESTERDAY, I bought a set of stickers. $2.10 at school's bookstore. Well, it reminded me of my childhood somehow. And I've decided to 从出江湖 and collect stickers!!! ^..^

Started of by asking LQ to get me an ultraman sticker if she sees one, and charge into my mum's account... Hee. Then I'll only buy stickers I really like. (not because they are cheap...) That may cost a meal for a month, but I'll have to control here and there laa. Then I'll exchange mine with those who have stickers to exchange with! WOW... (As if got pple like me ehh. O.o)

That time my house here has pasar malam and asked pple I know to come buy stickers and their reply was: "For who?" "For what?" I never thought of that before. I mean I never ask myself these questions before I buy stickers...Then I know, different frequency. Many would say that differences attract. To me, similarities attract! The more similar I am with you, the better I link with you. Well, but sometimes differences spice up my life too laa... No matter what, we are created to enjoy and worship Him forever. So as long as He's with us, what more to worry ot fear?!

Reminder of the week:

He knows our load limit and graciously limit our load.
Just as long as I don't go back and pick he old loads back, I'll enjoy life as He planned.

YOU!

Give me space to breathe.


I need air...

Hopes

People, don't bet the World Cup. You won't know what awaits at the end of the tunnel of betting. We reap what we sow. You'll enjoy the match more without betting. Really...

Luke 12:29-34 is today's reminder. Do go read up, those who have Bible. Everything on earth will eventually fail us. Maybe because of the expectations and the hope we put on these things in life. Great joy is upon those who put their hopes only in Jesus! They are the ones who still stands when everything around them starts to fail, starts to breakdown...

I love to dream, and like to end them saying, "God, you are more creative. Go ahead with Your plans." Maybe that will mean the end of my ideal future which I've always looked forward to. And start of a percecuted life? Who knows? But when people fail you, environment breaks you, and things you look forward to falls apart overnight, God is the only one left. And you'll see that the wisest choice of hope is to be nearer to Jesus. And nearer. And nearer.

I mean, does anything, anyone still dependable when they are away from God? If I have God, I have everything that I need to live out my purpose in life.

[Just hope that I don't lose it~]

Real Love

我用主的爱真诚来爱你
我用主的爱真诚来爱你
因我见你里面，有王的荣美
我用主的爱真诚来爱你
(Remember we sang this at TGY??)

CL is too unfaithful to be trusted for life. My love for others always fail. My love for people fades as fast as metal rusts in fitting conditions. My faithfulness changes as according to how others treat me. I cannot be depended. People cannot rely on me. The more I have got to draw strength from the right vessel. God. He alone. 1Cor 13:4-8 describes His unfailing love. That's why I live hopefully, still looking forward to a new CL. A dependable and reliable one. Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done. Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are. That's why ugliness in God becomes beautiful, and those despised in God are treasured. That, I call love.

God's love any relationship is the hope to all mankind. Who can say: 'Count on me!' or 'I'll never leave' or 'Marry me' WITHOUT GOD? Who dares say that their love is unfailing and never changing? But that doesn't bring all Christians into desperations, but hope! Only His love endures forever.

I want Your love. In me.

T.T

WHA~

Guess what?! I lost my GDOP booklet la! All my notes, scribbles, verses, prayers, thoughts, reflections GONE.
All that I can remember writing:

When we work, we work.
When we pray, God works. -Pastor Edmund Chan

Sadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsad...
SAD. Bring me back my memories!

T.T

Spiritually Busy!!

I have sooooo much to digest today. The sermon slaps me on the left cheeks and GDOP slaps me on the right. God is pruning =.=" (He hits hard.)

Sermon was on how to communicate. And the whole sermon was so CL-fitted. Everything that was said were all pointing towards me. Every point made me feel, "Isn't this exactly what I did to so-and-so?" Every point I was like, "Ok, it's all me..." I felt so small. So dirty. So worn out. But somewhere deep in I was so excited that the sermon was talking about just what I needed! :) 500 couples were taken to do a survey. And results showed that on average, they spend only 17MINS out of 178HOURS communicating~ (that's why marrying pastor is always a wise choice, listen to their sermon for coming week and hit a bare 45mins?! HAH.) That was really pathetic. Anyway, the secret to effective communication is to put our partner in pirioty than what we try to bring out. One more soild reminder-slap: Remove outdated price-tags on people. When we make assumptions, we're already in the wrong...

So many more... I may blog more tomorrow?




Now to the GDOP. For those who didn't know this, it's a Global Day Of Prayers for ALL churches in ALL nations. I'm so proud of Christianity!! I feel do honored to be part of this wonderful BIG family~ ^^ Today's highlight:
1. Actually GDOP was to be in the indoor stadium, but was booked. So we had to take the outdoor stadium instead. But guess what?! Half the staduim was filled as 24 thousand people attended and is double the capacity of the indoor stadium! What's more amazing was, the weather. Many would know that yeaterday was a super humid day, but today was so cooling and the thick white clouds blocked us from the heat! Perfect weather I would say. We can't ask for more...
2. Representatives from EFCs and Pentecost and Charismatic churches came, and guess what they do after so many misunderstandings. They repent. They speak face to face to each other, on stage, saying all the evil thoughts and evil hearts we've once beared. They both ask for forgiveness from each other for all the hurts and divisions they've caused. What they did later was more touching. They washed each other's feet! On stage! And after they did, they blessed each other. Isn't this going back to the basic?! Jesus did that~ I love that...
3. We have to be single-minded. (Will talk about this more... No worries!)

We all sweat like what. So sticky and crowded. But so Spiritually Busy~
Lord, may all that was taught by you be remembered and those not be forgotten.
And let the closeness of You not come from the music, but YOU.

I still have so much to say!!! I'll be back~

Brain VS Heart

The world will be the most Logical, Systematic, Computerised place. If Love doesn't exist. Won't it be nice if everything has it's logical-explanation but not answered because of the unexplanable word: Love?

Why does the father pretends to be excited with his young son when he sees a caterpillar?
Why grandmothers insist on going another side of town just to get the not-too-much-nicer toufu for her grandchildren for dinner?
Why does that son willing to spend thousands of dollars on keeping the breathing machine on for his paralysed parent?
Why did the her friend accompany her for hours just to hear her cry?
Why did the lady washes her boyfriend's car in the carpark the night before his important meeting?
Why did that cool man carry a bouquet of roses practising his speech in the park?
Why did the husband wears an apron and starts cooking for the family and trying his best not to look confused?
Why did his wife studies magazines to know why 2 yellow cards=sent off field or what a birdie meant to Woods?
Why did the white missionary spread Gospel to the blacks in the other end of the world?
Why did Jesus washed His disciples' feet?
Why did He went up hill to the cross?
Why did He forgives people who insulted, spit and tore His flesh apart?

Haven't you did something which was silly, crazy infact, in the name of love? Waiting for hours, yet refusing to go? Continue sharing the Gospel even when called names? Why did you buy gifts to people or write cards to others when you can't explain why if not for love? Are all these logical? Have they processed your brain before you acted?

If everything has to go through our brain to be digested into our lives, what difference are we from robots?(just that we may have more functions?!) We need our hearts more in our daily lives. More understanding, more forgiveness, more care, more kindness, more trust, more perserverence... And all these can't be found in Brains. They're all in the Heart section. Don't be afraid to over-use them. God will just provide more. Find yours and use them today!

You know why?

Because true Love never fails... :)

"WOW" Day

There're somethings in life that you'll never find it back after you missED it. And the most common one is TIME. Once you pass your childhood, you have no return. Once you pass your youth period, you never get it back. After your schooling years, you just lose it. It's just not the same anymore. There're somethings that you've done can never be repaired. The damage is there. You may say. "God heals." Indeed He heals, but there'll still be scars of memories. Imagine one day you meet a magic doctor who can heal all cut wounds and leave no scars. He has this cream which serves an instant effect, leaving no marks on your wounds. You were glad you met Him. However, will you keep cutting yourself, thinking you have the doctor's cream? You'll say I'm nuts, but wait. Don't we do it all the time?

Aiya, don't read Bible today la, I can read tomorrow. I'll watch pornography first and ask for forgiveness later, it's too tempting. I'll laze more now and take a cab later. I tell a lie to get through then I'll do my devotion later. I'll play two more games now and so my work tomorrow... Isn't all these familiar? We choose to cut oursleves, even when we know that those cuts hurt.

I've came to realised that every little efforts we made to want to draw near to the real God, He spents more time helping us to get closer to Him, if not He comes closer to us Himself! Today, I learnt "meditation" in a more practical and solid way. To meditate is to focus on something. When you walk, you think about it. When you sit you think about it. When you work you think about it as and when you don't need too much energy. When you play or relax, you think about it. I meditated Romans 12:1-2. Mind you, for the 2 whole days just these two verses. Nothing more. I memorised them with great effort.(Maybe some may take just 5mins to do it...) In my meditation, I not only memorise, I tasted it. I ask myself questions. I wanted to act like Jesus, I tried to think like him. I asked myself what would he care about most if he was me, in my position. How would Jesus give His body as He goes to school? And I fasted today.

No gastric, thank God for the mercy He has for me.(I was pretty worried actually~) I asked God to give me vision, to see what He'll see if He was walking along that shelter, if He prepares to go for work, if He has to reject earthly things, if He sees that irritating guy, if He hears people starting to gossip, if He walks home from work... I asked for chances for me to do something, as I see with God-tacles. Guess what?! I did! I gave the cardborad grandma all that I have with me, $4.20. She thanked me as if I spared her a life. And in on the way back, I couldn't control my tears. So I pretended to take out Reader's Digest to read. To cover my silly tears. I asked for God-tacles, He gave. I asked for chance to do good, He gave. I asked for gastric-free fast, He gave! And to me, He gave more than these. He added Joy(I never ask), Peace(I never ask), Love(I never ask) in my tiny heart...

You may think that I'm very weird and out of mind. I can't control but to urge that you try the same. To tell God what you want to do for Him in your morning bath, to choose a verse to memorise on your way to work, to see life through God-tacles~ Until you tried that, you'll never understand me and not understand how our Lord works. Don't sleep in MRT, try bringing a book? Don't leave home without a prayer. Don't allow yourself to serve meat that meal if you've forgotten to pray. Don't read RW's book before reading Bible. Don't switch on the TV before doing all that you should. A focused life=Listing down all that we have to do and all that we vow NOT TO DO.(RW said that~) Then can we be focused. Cut down on some things which don't matter that much until God gives me one more hand to handle.(I seriously don't want~)

When you think of what God has done for you, is that too much to ask? We're to give ourselves up, because that's the kind of sacrifice Lord wants, living and Holy. Com'on, transform me, brainwash me, change me. I want to think like You. See like You. Hear like You. Speak like You. Act like You. I want to be like Your shadow. Don't put out my fire by asking me when will I ever reach THERE. That's not what I'd like to focus.

Step by step, each a step of faith. Weak and fragile faith walking, careful!